Why Me? (the gaga diaries)

Sixty-Six

Chapter 66-diary entry 27(still)

After Demi, Taylor, and I finalized the plan, I got on twitter to see that a ton of people had tweeted me asking what was up with Gaga. I started a new tweet telling them simply that she hasn't been herself and that I wanted a picture from as many monsters as possible doing their best paws up with a small little message. In a couple hours I had over ten thousand entries being sent my way, and I quickly put them all into a slide show, and edited it as each new picture was sent in. I finally had plenty of pictures and stopped accepting them. I felt bad for the monsters who may not have gotten theirs sent, but the slide show was already fifteen minutes long. I added the background music of gypsy to it, and saved it to my iPad. "Gaga," I said knocking on the bedroom door, "I have something for you." "Come in baby." She called, and I opened the door. "So.. Everyone's kinda noticed that you haven't quite been yourself lately," I started, sitting down next to her, "So we all decided to do something special." She looked at me with a small smile as I handed her the iPad. She watched with teary eyes as the slide show went through picture after picture of her beloved little monsters. When it was over she looked at me and smiled. "Thank you so much Amy." She whisperd, tears streaming down her face. "You're welcome mommy." I replied. She hugged me tightly, and didn't let go for a long time.

"Wanna know a secret?" She asked after a while. I nodded. "Yesterday I.. I really felt like getting high. I fought with myself all day. I almost gave in, but then you and Demi came home from shopping, and you came back here smiling at me, and I knew that I couldn't do it. I had to stay away from it for you, baby. I truly do need you more than dope." I sat speechless as Gaga's words swirled around in my mind. For five years of my life Lady Gaga was always the one who kept me strong. If I wanted to cut, nope think of Gaga. When I knew I needed to eat, I'd do it for Gaga. Yet here I was, being told that because of me, SHE stayed strong. Tears immediately began to run down my face and I hugged her tightly, never wanting to let her go. All the old emotions from when I was just a little fangirl sitting all alone in my room dying over Gaga came back and I remembered just how lucky I was to be sitting there with her. "I love you so much. I don't know what I'd do with out you." I cried, still clinging to her tightly. "I love you too baby. And if I didn't have you, then I'd have nothing. You are my everything." She said, causing me to cry even harder. "Hey Amy, thank you." I looked up at her, "F-For what?" I asked, sniffling. "For being a part of my life."

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here you guys go

so.. this will probably be the last chapter for a while.. i think im taking a break from writing for a bit.

xoxo Jenna.