I Promise You

(24) No You Can't Stop DNA

About one month has passed and I felt pretty comfortable being back by now, but it still wasn't as great as London. This place didn't have Jake or Phoebe or Poppy or Hanna, but it had my sisters, who progressed everything and started spending time with our dad as well. Also Keeley had progressed everything I had told her about her mom. I told her sorry about a thousand times, but she had already forgiven me, with her parents on the other side... Yeah, she doesn't like them so much right now. She spends a lot of time at our place. We grew kind of close.

I mean we are cousins, but I haven't told my parents yet. They didn't have to know that. I was just lucky I had someone to talk to, who is kind of on the outside of this entire drama.

"Why won't they stop calling?!" Keeley asked, throwing her phone across the room onto her guest bed. "Because they are worried about you" I told her.  "Well, I don't care! I have been living a lie for my entire life. They can worry for a while" She said. "Well, if it helps you. You are the complete opposite of your mother" I told her and briefly hugged her.

"Oh, I gotta use the bathroom. Like now!" Keeley said and I let go of her. "You know where it is" I told her and she hurried off running. I laughed and laid back and texted Phoebe, not hoping for a reply, since it must be night in England.

"Hey little guy" I said as I saw my brother passing by my room. "Shoot!" He said and moved back and looked into my room. "I heard that" I said and I rolled my eyes "Aren't you grounded?" I asked. "Please, you didn't see me, right?" He asked and I sighed "No, I didn't. But I can't promise you about Keeley" I said and he smiled, before running off.

Just a short time later Keeley came back to the room and sat down on her bed and took her phone "Ten missed calls from mom and eleven from dad" She said, before turning her phone off. "Do they know where you are?" I asked her. "Not exactly. I told them I was staying with a friend, which isn't a lie" She said and I got up and sat down next to her.

"I thought you were a nice person, where that did go?" I asked confused. "I can be a little bitchy when I'm on my period" She said and my face expression disappeared. "What's wrong?" She asked confused. I looked up, then jumped up and grabbed my phone and opened the calendar. "No... No no no no no no!" I said, sitting down on my bed and laying my phone down beside me. "Prom, what's going on?" Keeley asked and sat down beside me.

"I'm late" I said and looked at her. "What? How late exactly?" She asked, keeping her calm. "Two months" I said almost crying. "Oh my god, is it even possible for you to be...?" She asked, not being able to say the word. "Yes... Jake and I... We.. kinda.. you know.." I said. Keeley hugged me, not knowing what she should do. "I can't be!" I said, starting to cry into her shoulder. "Let's get you to a gynecologistlike now!" She said and I raised my head and nod.

Just two hours later I knew the results of my blood test and I knew what I was afraid of. I was.. Gosh, I couldn't even say it out loud. "Promise me, not to tell anyone. I'm not ready yet" I said, while the doctor was getting some information papers. "Of course" She said and hugged me briefly.

Just a short time later the doctor came back "So, you have any questions?" He asked and I nod "Is there another option, besides having it" I asked. "Well, there is abortion. But I wouldn't recommend it. Many patients fall into a depression after losing the baby and some get over it when they have another baby, not always through therapy" He said. "What other options are there? I don't wanna kill a baby" I said. My voice hasn't calmed down yet. It still sounded like I was about to cry.

"Adoption, once the baby is born. You have time until the birth or maybe you want to try and keep it, see how it goes. If it doesn't work, you can still give it up for adoption" He said. "I'll think about it" I said and looked at Keeley. The gynecologist seemed to notice that I wasn't feeling comfortable. "Are you okay?" He asked and I nod "It's just, that I fall into stereotypes with this. I never thought of myself as a stereotype, but this baby makes me one. My mother was just 17 when she gave birth to me and from what you said, I'll have that baby before I turn 16. It's a lot to take in..." I said and he nod understanding.

"I can give you some addresses, where you can go when you need help, like with telling your parents. You are not alone Promise and you are not the first girl to be pregnant and you are definitely not the youngest" He said and gave me a brochure. "You are not alone" He repeated. Guess he really wanted me to know that.

Outside I finally had the courage to talk about it. "What am I gonna do?" I asked, looking at Keeley. "I don't know, but I'll be here for you!" Keeley said and put her arm around me "Are you gonna tell him?" She asked and I shook my head no "There is no need for Jake to know! I'm gonna give it up for adoption and that's it. I'll never see it again. I don't want to see it again. I'm too young for this. My mom and dad always wanted me to have it better than they had, not the exact same way. Just the part missing where the baby daddy is my brother. Luckily he's not!" I said.

By the way, I had told Keeley about my siblings as well. She was really understanding about it and swore not to tell anyone. She also swore not to tell my parents, who her parents were and to her parents she refers to me as Clarissa, so they won't suspect anything. We didn't want to freak them out, so we decided to keep it a secret.

I know, I wanted to stop with the secret keeping, but some things are better off staying a secret.