I Promise You

(44) I Be Thinkin in My Bed

Oh my god... what did I do...Why did I do it!? How stupid can a person be!?! Seriously?! Gosh!!!

So here I was, laying in my bed, contemplating. Thinking about how stupid I was for kissing Jesse. After about 20 minutes I got up and took my laptop and opened up my laptop.

Hey guys, it's your girl Fray. Sorry for not posting as much as I used to. Right now I'm in love with a guy that is dating my biggest enemy. He was in love with me for years, but I didn't return them. Now I do and now he doesn't. Also, have I mentioned my boyfriend yet? No, not the UK guy. He's American, just like me. He's cute and nice and all, but... I can't think about him. I feel like the worst person when I think about the guy I like, maybe even love, while kissing my boyfriend.

I'm sorry for whining like that, but I need to get it out. It's about 2 AM and I'm still awake. I'm so tired, but as soon as I close my eyes, my brain goes back to those two. Why can't I stop thinking about- let's call him love- love. He's on my mind even now. Right now. And you should probably know that I'm a sucker for British accents. They make me melt. I was immune against love's accent, but with every kiss we shared, it became harder and harder to resist him. Just today, when I kissed love, after I was with my boyfriend, I didn't want to pull away. I didn't want to stop.

But I had to. I pulled away and couldn't bear to look into his eyes. I had to leave. I ran off as fast as my feet could carry me. So, now you know what's going on in my life. Talk to you again when it's not 2:30 in the middle of the night.

Xoxo Fray

I closed my laptop after hitting the post button and put it down on my nightstand. I turned off the little lamp on my nightstand and turned around in my bed and closed my eyes, only to open them again about two minutes later. "Gosh, get out off my head!!" I whined and put the pillow over my head.

I only stayed like that for a few minutes before putting my head back onto the pillow and turned around once more. I kept that going for a few hours, thinking about Peyton, Jesse and him dating Lennon. I still couldn't believe it!! He found her annoying and stupid, now he let's her push her tongue down her throat.

"Promise!! You're late for school" My mom shouted the next morning, while she was standing next to my bed. "Can I please stay home today? I didn't sleep at all last night... I'm so tired, I can't even open my eyes completely" I said and she thought for a short moment "Okay, but just today! Tomorrow you are going back to school" "Thanks mom! I owe you" I said, while my eyes fell close on my own. "Sleep tight Prom" Was the last thing I heard before I finally trifted of to sleep.

EVIE'S PoV

"Who was it?" Ronnie asked me. "It was Aunt Liv. Prom is staying home. She didn't sleep all night" I explained to her. "Do you know why?" "No, but I texted Prom to call me when she is awake" I told her and closed my locker, since I had everything I needed. "So, how are things with Cole?" I asked my sister out of curiosity. "How are things with Devon?" She asked in return. "He's the cutest! I don't know what I ever saw in Cole!" I said and since we didn't pay any attention to where we were going, we ran into Jesse.

"Have you seen Promise? I really need to talk to her!" He said anxious and like he was in a hurry. "She's not here. She wasn't feeling well" Ronnie told him. He didn't had to know the real reason Prom wasn't her and when I say real reason, I mean that she hadn't slept all night.

"I gotta run. Bye!" I said and hurried off. "Me too!" Ronnie said and hurried after me.

PROMISE'S PoV

I woke up to feel something furry in between my arms. I slowly opened my eyes and waited for my eyesight to turn clear. Lindy was laying next to me, just that she was still asleep. "Cutie" I said and slowly pulled my arm out from under her and took my phone. There was a text from Evie. She wanted me to call her. I was about to do just that, but then I saw the clock and noticed that she was in class right now.

I sighed and put the phone down, then got out of my comfortable warm bed. I went downstairs and made myself some breakfast. I ate my entire cereal, then put the bowl away. Suddenly the door bell rang and Puck ran to it. Luckily he didn't bark, but he sat down in front of it. I carefully pushed him aside and opened the front door.

Faster than I could react, the person kissed me. It was Jesse. He placed his hands on my cheek, while I placed my right hand on his shoulder, moving it to the back of his neck, pulling him inside. We shortly pulled apart and I closed the front door. As soon as I turned around I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips back onto his. "I love you Promise. Only you!" He said, as out foreheads were resting against each other. "I love you too Jesse" I said and and kissed him again.

Like I said before like a million times, Jesse was some kind of drug and I was totally addicted to it/him. We slowly moved towards the kitchen, where he lifted me onto the counter. I wrapped my legs around him and placed my hands on the back of his neck again. We continued kissing.