This is life.

23 ➤ A very strange Christmas

(A/N- plz read to the end if u want to know who is playing Britney, the cast list on here is acting up again!)

As I walk down stairs with Jensen my smile quickly fades as I see Jason running to me. "Um, Britney..." he started, he was about to continue but gave Jensen a sort of look that said 'you better not have tried anything', making me roll my eyes. "Take me home." I said blankly as I left the two men, I went and sat back down at Jensen's home bar. I order 9 vodka shots for myself and forced it all down quickly while I waited for Sebastian to hurry up and drive me home so I can cry myself to sleep. Yeah so I drink away my problems, what of it? Don't judge me, you'd do the same if you feel the way I do, vulnerable and weak. The alcohol burned down my throat, it felt like acid with it's strong, bitter taste. It left a hot feeling in my chest that hurt like hell but I kept drinking.

God today has been exhausting, I don't know if I can take what Jason will give to me once we're alone. I don't know what to expect and it scares me to think about it now. will he listen to me this time and give me a chance? Will he left me go? I shake of the thoughts an finish the last shot. I felt myself grow reluctant and I let myself loosen up. Sounds began to sound like everyone was talking under water and it took me a while to try and sober up with the little effort I used, my efforts went to waste as I gave up and laughed like crazy. Every time I drink I get hiccups and right now I was trying to control them from looking like an idiot. I played with the shot glasses stupidly as I felt the heavenly strong alcohol go into my system and consume my thoughts, washing all of my troubles away.

"Hi." I heard a male voice greet. I turn to my left and saw an extremely attractive man, he looked maybe in his late 20's or early 30's, he had hazel eyes and dark brown hair, he was dressed in a black tux just like Jason, I smiled flirtatiously. "Hi." I said, trying my best to sound sober. "What's your name?" I asked. "Channing." He introduced as he held out his hand. "Britney." I said as I shook it. "I'm sorry did you say your name was Channing?" I asked excitingly. "Yeah." He chuckled. "Oh my god, I'm sorry but I have to sing the song!" I said as I held up my hands. "What song?" he asked. "The Channing Tatum song!" I explained, he still have me a clueless look and I just began to drunkly sing the song. "I wanna, Channing all over your Tatuuuuuuum!" I shouted.

We both laughed and he sighed. "Girls don't sing that to you?" I asked. "Nope." He said. "Well they should." I said with a smile. "You're the first." He flirted. "Well then I'm honoured." I said as I bowed in my seat, he laughed. "I'm sorry but I have to go." He suddenly said after he looked at his watch. "Don't you think it was a bit stupid to begin flirting at the end of the night?" I asked with a raised eyebrow. "Maybe, but worth talking to you." He said before kissing my cheek sweetly. "I'll see you around." He said with a wink before leaving into the sea of people. "Oh wait! I didn't get..." he was nowhere in sight and I sighed. "Your number." I finished sadly.

Oh well, I'll ask Jensen who that man was next time, he seems nice, and super cute too. Fuck Jason! If I want to date I will, I may be his sub but that doesn't mean I can't date other people, what he doesn't know won't hurt him. I felt someone shake my shoulder and I groaned in annoyance as I angrily bat the person off. I turn around and see Jason. "Sebastian's here, let's go." He said. "Finalllyy." I said dramatically as I stood up, big mistake. I was already hammered so the room seemed like it was spinning, I stumbled a bit and would've fallen if Jason hadn't caught me. I giggle and put my hand on his chest. "Thanks sexy." I slurred. "I left you at this bar for 10 minutes, what the hell did you drink?" Jason asked annoyingly. "Well..." I started. "I had 8- no 9 vodka shots." I said with a wide smile, as I indicated 9 with my fingers. I was feeling proud that I could remember, well done drunk Britney. "And also , I might've had some wiiine and cocktails before...' I slurred. "Come on, let's get you to the car." Jason said as he set me down, I used Jason to support my weak body as we walked outside, I saw our limo waiting for us.