Moving Forward

Part 78

Jennifer Jareau's POV

We have finished eating the dinner and the kids are watching a movie. Spencer left a few minutes ago to pick up some clothes for Emily and Oliver. Emily went to the bathroom to take a bath and I'm cleaning the dishes.

Once I'm done with the dishes, I notice that it has been more than 30 minutes that Emily is in the bathroom and I haven't heard the water yet. I get upstairs to see if she's okay. I knock on the door.

"Emily? Are you okay?"

There's no answer, so I knock another time.

"Emily? Do you hear me?"

Still no answer. I do not have any choices than to come in to see if she okay.

"Emily, I'm coming in."

I enter the bathroom and I see Emily crying on the floor. I kneel down in front of her.

"Emily... What's wrong?" I say, wiping her tears away.

"What if he misses his daughter's birth? It will happen only once!"

"He's gonna wake up way before you're in labor, okay? You're only 25 weeks pregnant. It remains you at least 13 weeks which is a little bit more that 3 months."

Without a warning, Emily grabs my wrist tight.

"I... I... I can't breathe."

She's probably having a panic attack.

"Emily. It's okay. Look at me right in the eyes."

I hold her hands and I make her sign of breathing slowly.

"It's okay, Emily. It's me, JJ. You're safe. Nobody can hurt you. It's okay."

After a few minutes, Emily is finally breathing normally. But I notice that she is still shaking.

"Did you take your medication?"

Since her last psychotic break, Emily has to take a medication which includes Fluoxetine for her PTSD, Buspirone for her anxiety, Maprotiline for her depression and Lurasidone for her psychotic breaks. It helps her a lot! Though, she has to be monitoring more often even if the risks for the baby are low. The thing that is mostly going to happen but not surely is that the baby will have a withdrawal after she's born.

"Yes, I did."

"Maybe you should get so rest. Don't forget that tomorrow you also have an appointment with your psychologist. After we could go see Aaron. Sounds good?"

She nods. I help her to get up and we walk to the guest room. Spencer is already there, putting Emily's and Oliver's clothes in the wardrobe.

"The movie must be over, I'll put Oliver to bed," Spencer says, leaving the room.

Emily puts her pajama on and I can't help but notice the scars on her wrists. But I prefer not to talk about it right now.

Spencer arrives with Oliver in his arms.

"I'll also put Jaeden and Hope to bed. When you'll be ready, you could wish them good night."

I nod.

"Good night, Buddy," Spencer says to Oliver before leaving the room.

I pick out a pajama for Oliver and I dress him. Then I put him in the playpen which is his bed for now. Once Emily and Oliver are ready, I walk to the door.

"Good night," I say, leaving the room, turning off the light.

I walk to the kids' room, Spencer is telling them a story. I don't want to interrupt him. So he ends his story and I kiss the kids good night. We then get out of the room, slowly closing the door. We walk to our room and we put our pajama on.

"Spence. We need to talk."

"Is there something wrong? You don't wanna get married? You wanna get married now? What is it?"

"It's not about the wedding, we can take all of our time and only get married next year if you want, but that's not the matter."

"What's the matter then?"

I open the drawer of my bedside table and I get it out.

"What is that?"

I reveal it. It's a pregnancy test which I did earlier.

"Are you serious?!" He smiles.

The test is positive.

"Of course I am!"

"That's great! We're getting another child!"

I nod, eyes filling up with tears of joy. Spencer takes my face in his hands and kisses me.

"That's amazing," he softly declares.