Moving Forward

Part 82

Jennifer Jareau's POV

It has been almost a week since Aaron died. Oliver didn't really understand what's happening because he's too young. Though Emily is really down and rarely left the guest room since, she only left it to go to the bathroom. I brought her food and I made sure she ate it all even if she's not hungry. We set Oliver in the kids' room to give Emily a little break.

Spencer is watching a movie with the kids, I take some rice and chicken that we ate for dinner and I put it on a plate for Emily. I get upstairs and I knock on the guest room's door.

"Emily? It's me. I'm coming in," I say, opening the door.

Emily is laid on the bed and covers her face with a blanket when I turn on the light. It takes her a few seconds to get used to the brightness of the room. Once she's used to the light, she slowly sits straight up. I cautiously put down the plate on the tray which is on Emily's legs.

"Thanks..."

I sit on the corner of the bed, next to her.

"Emily. Did you take your medication?"

She nods.

"Tomorrow, the kids have chemo. Spencer and I will go with them and I'd like you to come with us. You have to take some fresh air. We will probably go to your house too."

"I'll think about it..."

"Really, Emily... Anyway, we have to think about Aaron's funeral."

Emily's staring at her ring.

"I don't wanna do that..."

"What do you mean?" I ask her.

"I don't wanna see Aaron being buried six feet under... I can't do this..."

"We can start by going to Aaron's office to pick up his things."

"Um..."

"And Spencer and I discussed today. I think it'd be better for you to stay here for the rest of your pregnancy and after too, so we can help you with your daughter. Is this okay for you?"

"Yeah... If you want to..."

"Emily! I don't know what to do anymore! I need your help! I don't know what you need or what you want! I just try to help and I can't help you if you don't help me! I'm so exhausted!"

"I'm sorry, JJ... I just... I don't know... I'm not able to be sad... I... I'm angry. But I don't feel totally angry. I don't know... Thank you for everything you do. You're not obligated, but you still take care of me... You don't know how much you're helping me."

"You don't understand, Em... Oliver keeps asking where is his mom. He thinks you're with Aaron. He misses you a lot. I don't ask you to Grieve right now, I know it will take a lot of time, but you need to do this with Oliver."

"Maybe I will come with you tomorrow..."

"Emily... For Oliver and your daughter."

"I don't want to go home alone. I don't want to go back to this house where I lived with Aaron."

"You can stay as long as you want."

"I wanna live with you."

"I'll have to talk about it with Spence, but I don't think it will cause any problem."

"Thank you, JJ..."

I take Emily's plate and I walk to the door. Before turning off the light, I turn to Emily.

"Next week, Spence's gonna go back to work with everyone, but I'm gonna stay with you. And, by the way, I already planned your maternity leave and there's a new agent coming to replace you in a few weeks."

She nods and I leave, gently closing the door.