{Profile My Heart's sequel}
**Read Profile My Heart before**
After what they have been through, everything has changed. JJ and Spencer are living a dream with their children; Hope and Jaeden. And what about Emily and Hotch who love their adopted chi...
It has been a few minutes that JJ left me alone in the office of my deceased fiancé. I rub my middle before sitting behind his desk. Then, I imagine him behind his desk, filling up some papers, answering the phone, talking with other officers or agents. I open one drawer, there are pens and papers in it. I open another drawer. In it, there's a small box with my name on it. I hesitate to open it. I close my eyes and I take a few deep breaths. Then I open it. There are letters in it...
If you're reading it, I must be far away. The following letters contain things I felt easier to write down than to tell you. For some, I already told you but wrote it first. Sometimes, words are easier to write than to say. I'm sorry for having left you alone. I know it must be hard for you. I'm sorry, I wasn't strong enough. Or maybe I should've fought back harder. Anyway, I didn't come back as the winner and I abandoned you. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. I hope you're going to forgive me one day. I love you with all my heart and I watch over you from Heaven.
With love, Aaron Jameson Hotchner ~ Xx ~
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February 18th, 2007
It has been a few months since you're working at the BAU. I don't know why, but I feel weird near you. You are so magnificent! I could spend hours staring at you! Though, you would find me strange and maybe a bit psycho. Your dark eyes, if I stare too much into them I might get lost in them. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about you. I feel myself blushing when you talk to me. My mind is somewhere else when you touch me. Is it what we call love? If so, I think I might have fallen in love with you.
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May 17th, 2012
The best thing happened to us today! I can't believe it's finally happening! There's a little human being growing in your belly, wow! We're getting a family! I can't believe you pregnant!
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November 1st, 2012
I couldn't believe it when they told me you had been kidnapped. I wasn't able to believe it when you called me, saying you had lost the baby. I can't believe we lost our baby a few weeks ago. I should've protected you... I'm so sorry. Though I'm glad we adopted Oliver. I couldn't really believe it till that moment when I hold him for the first time yesterday. I can't describe how I felt. I was very happy, but I the same time, it made me think about the baby we lost... I know it will probably be our only child because you can't get pregnant anymore and adopting a child is not always as easy as adopting Oliver. We were lucky that Oliver was born two weeks before we got to the hospital. I think it's excellent having him in our lives! Not that he will replace the child we lost... I know how much you suffered and you will plausibly be haunted by this event for a long time, but I'm ready to face every barrier with you. I'm ready to walk in this dark place with you. It will probably be hard and scary, but I'll always be right behind you to catch you if you fall. I love you no matter what and we will make a whole together.
