Moving Forward

Part 46

Jennifer Jareau's POV

Hotch walks to me and gives me a bag.

"In this bag, there's a dress. Once you're dressed, come back and I'll set the microchips which will allow us to keep contact with you. It's only a microchip that allows us to hear you and to know where you are. But you won't be able to hear us. So you'll have to follow your instinct. So get ready and come back."

I nod and I get to the washroom. When I enter, I hear someone throwing up.

"Emily? Is that you?"

There's no answer, but I know it's her. I walk to the cabin in which she is. I unlock the door and I see Emily in front of the toilet, vomiting. I drop the bag and I hold Emily's hair while rubbing her back. Once she has finished, she let herself fall into my arms.

"JJ..."

"Yeah, Emily. I'm here."

"You're leaving, aren't you?"

"Yes. Hotch gave me a dress to put on. I have to get back to his office so he could install me the microchip. Aren't you feeling better?"

"I don't understand... I hate morning sicknesses! I hate that part of the pregnancy!"

"You won't say that anymore when you'll be holding your little baby."

"Probably."

"Are you going to be okay?"

"Yeah..."

"I'm gonna dress up and then go to Hotch's office. After that, I'll tell you all goodbye."

She nods and I get out of the cabin, going to another cabin. Then I dress myself up. Once I'm all dressed up, I get out of the cabin. The dress Hotch gave me is pretty light and short. I find it a bit too sexy. But I have to wear it because I have to fit into a gang. The gang is composed of criminals and drugs dealers. They are very dangerous and Kate told us that she had almost caught them, but when they suspected her to be a cop, one of them stabbed her and beat her to death, but she survived. But she had to fake her own death because she was in danger. I look myself in the mirror and I take a deep breath. I hear Emily throwing up again.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes... Go see Aaron, I'll meet you in a few minutes."

"Okay."

And I leave the washroom, heading to my boss' office. I enter without knocking. I'm a little bit shy in this dress and Hotch notices it.

"Don't be shy. They will notice it."

"I know. I just feel naked in this dress."

Hotch stares at me.

"What's wrong?"

"You should put some makeup. You know?"

I nod and I pick up my makeup and a little mirror. Then I put some makeup on. I turn back to Hotch, waiting for him to approve. He then takes the microchip and sets it on my bra, so nobody can see it.

"I think you're ready."

"I'm just gonna say goodbye to everyone."

Hotch approves and I leave his office.

I walk to the Conference Room where everyone's waiting for me. I see that everyone has cried a bit. Penelope comes to me and hugs me. I feel her tears falling on my shoulder. I try not to cry not to undo my makeup.

"JJ... I need you to be okay. You have to be okay. Not only for me but for everyone. Especially your family."

"Pen... You know everything will be fine."

"Yes... I know."

I wipe her tears away as she did for me. Then Derek comes to me. I hug him.

"Will you take care of Spence?" I whisper in his ear.

"Don't worry, JJ. I will take care of him and I will help him with the kids."

"Thank you, Derek."

He hugs me tighter.

"I'd do anything for you."

I walk to Emily. She's pretty pale. I think she has been sick a lot.

"Em'..." I sigh as I hug her tight.

"JJ... You can't just go like that."

"I'm sorry... But I have to ask you a favor."

"Anything."

"You have to take care of yourself."

"I will."

I then walk to Spence. He has cried a lot. And he is trying not to cry in front of me. But when I hug him, I feel his tears falling on my shoulder. We don't talk. But after a while, I decide to talk.

"Spence... You know I won't be away very long. Perhaps I'll be back tomorrow. We don't know."

"Yeah... Or maybe you'll be back in a month!"

"Spence... Please..."

"Hope and Jaeden need you!"

"They need you too. They know I'll be working for a while. I told them."

"I'm scared of losing you."

"I know, Spence. I know. I'm scared too."

I kiss him. We kiss for a while. Then I turn and I see Aaron and Kate. They must have entered when we were kissing. I walk to them without turning back. I know it would be painful.

"I'm ready," I declare.