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The hospital didn't want to let Aurora go home early, they allowed Harry to spend the night there in the room with her but he denied. Things felt weird and he was certain she had lost her memory. She had been speaking to him like the fights never happened, the way they were a year ago. When they still had love for each other. Harry was trying hard not to lose his mind over this and act as normal as he could for Aurora. All he wanted to talk about was her accident and how bad it was, he wanted to ask her if he could see her wound on her forehead but he couldn't move on from the fact that she had lost a big part of her memory. He needed to go home and straighten things out. Aurora still thinks they're together and that all the fights never happened. She doesn't remember the accident or why she was in one in the first place. If Harry told her about the arguments and that she broke up with him she wouldn't buy none of it. She'd feel upset and he'd feel like an asshole, he's part of the reason she was in this mess. He then thought about Jannes, how could he tell her about this and how would he tell Aurora about this. He loved Jannes and letting her go was not on the list.

"What are you thinking about?" Aurora interrupted his thoughts bringing his attention back to her.

"Huh? Me? Nothing, I'm just kind of tired. I should get going home, I'll see you-"

"You're not staying with me?" She spoke in a faint confused voice.

Harry's heart broke seeing her upset. He felt bad that she thought he loved her back. If this was a year ago he would have stayed in the hospital with her the whole four months because he was so in love but that just wasn't the case anymore.

He couldn't hold it in anymore, he couldn't say anything back, he couldn't think of anything to say. He looked at Aurora laying in her hospital bed and held his breath to ease the tears from threatening his waterline and before she could see how broken he was she saw the back of him walking out the door with no other word.

       Harry pulled into his drive way and stared at the house for a longtime as thoughts tattooed his mind. He felt so broken and hurt to see her like that lost in another world hopelessly in love with him. He kept thinking back to how it felt when he was so in love with her during their high school years and how it was so similar to this moment but only Aurora was the one hopelessly in love this time. It pained his chest. He hated that he had a good heart and still cared for her, if he were stubborn and cruel he would have told the hospital to stop calling and would have went over to Jannes' place instead. He was getting frustrated with himself and didn't know what exsactly to do other then scream at himself. It seemed like the best idea.

"WHY AURORA?! WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THIS?! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?!" He screamed slamming his fist into the steering wheel. "You don't deserve this" tears now growing hot as they slid down his cheeks. He needed to hang onto someone, a shoulder to cry on and that person was normally Aurora but she was fifteen minutes away at a hospital probably crying because he left without saying anything else.

       He went to the store and bought a bottle of liquor. He needed to drown his sorrow in the burning liquid and forget about Aurora but the alcohol made it worse. His sister had came over as soon as he called crying over the phone and she hugged him tightly for what seemed like an hour now. She loved her brother and would do anything for him in a heart beat. Gemma patted his back in the hug and tried to understand what he was going through as he rambled on about how his life was a piece of shit and of course she'd tell him it wasn't. Harry extended his arm to try and get another swig of the beverage but Gemma moved the bottle away from his reach.

"I feel like an asshole Gem. She doesn't deserve this. She's such a good person. She started doing bad things when we started fighting. She started drinking again Gem! She never did but because of me she did" he cried on his sisters shirt that she was willing to get soaked by his tears. "You should have seen her. She was talking to me like how she used to! You try seeing someone you don't love anymore be completely in love with you, you'd feel the same way. She doesn't know the love is one sided and I don't want to tell her because I care so much about her just not in the way she thinks" Harry held his sister tightly. "I don't want to hurt anymore" 

"Harry, I'm sorry. I don't know what to say, it's never happened to me but it sounds horrible. I can't imagine if that were to happen to me" Gemma cooed.

"If I tell her I'll lose her forever and I'll never know if she's okay again. I need to make sure her life goes on the right way because this is all practically my fault." Everything he was saying sounded like he could be in love with her, it wasn't that way though. He was right, he cared about her still. It's hard not to care when that person was once your everything and for the longest time too.

Harry had fell asleep on the couch as Gemma brought him a blanket and dumped the rest of the alcohol into the sink. She gave her brother a kiss on the forehead and left his house. She felt bad for her brother and wished she could of stayed the night but she had a family at home and couldn't leave them alone.

It was four in the morning and Aurora hadn't shut her eyes, not even for a minute. She was busy peering out her window looking over the pitch dark skies being lit up by the street lamps. She wasn't really paying attention to the outside world but was rather engaged in her own thoughts. The last of her memorise confused her, how was it she remembers her and Harry's four year anniversary that was in January but she's been in a coma for four months and they're in November? She was missing a seven month gap that she can't seem to remember and that's when she panicked. She began to hyperventilate and she couldn't control her breathing, she slammed the nurse help button and tried her best to calm herself down but was failing miserably. Her nurse came racing in and grabbed a hold of her arms and began to side coach her trying to calm her down.

"Sweetheart you need to breathe, try that with me" the nurse inhaled and exhaled as Aurora was trying to mock but her breath was shaky. Once she had calmed down it felt like the words had been knocked out of her and all she could do was cry. Her nurse looked at her worried as she struggled to ask what was wrong.

"Miss Valentine? Are you alright?" She asked rubbing her shoulder to stimulate her to spit some words out.

"Can you please tell me the date today?" Aurora asked in a whisper like she was afraid of her response.

"It's now the eighth of November dear, why?" She replied looking at the calender.

Aurora's tears were going down one after another. She'd lost a part of her memory. She was afraid for some odd reason, like if the world had moved on without her and she'd been left behind. She wanted her mother and father with her at this moment but even most she wanted Harry.

"Nurse Galleher, I lost my memory...I'm very sure of it" she choked out leaving the nurse with a confused look, she was worried this would have happened. With the accident as big as the one she was in she knew she would lose something.

"Oh...dear, I-" she started, "brain damage like memory lose is so unpredictable. I had hoped this wouldn't happen but I can't change what's been done. I'm so sorry miss Valentine" the nurse said no more bringing her into a hug. She needed some support system now that she was up so late and so alone.

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