The days are empty. Everything turns to an negative everyday. Something always goes wrong and predicting what's gonna happen is now a time passer in my life. Everything crumbles around me. I'm a brick wall that can't be build. It starts off well then continues to fall down as the world rejects it. Everything happens for a reason. Whether it's heart break or something else that is stupid. At the end of the day it hurts and it hurts bad.
No one seems to notice though and that's the good thing. These things that destroy me on the inside help me each day. Help me get better to get over the heartbreak of loosing someone I thought would love me forever or something that makes me loose my mind every time I see one. I loose my mind when I see him. I want to see him I do but no one knows why as everyone thinks they know. News flash they don't (if u guys r reading this I do love u ❤). Most days i lie on my bed thinking what i did wrong and how I could of stopped the heartbreak but then I think to myself it was probably the best even though it hurt a lot. Although that showed how much one of my best friends meant to be (you know who you are and I will always love you for that❤). This made me curl up in a ball, cry in the middle of the night but then make me smile and think of other things that make it much better than I felt. Not many people know these feelings of me but I rather keep it this way. But other things in in my life still knock me down. I don't know if I can get up again. Seriously though when Is my Prince Charming coming to sweep me off my feet? Like I'm waiting. I want someone right now to be mine and to love them but come on, we all know that ain't gonna happen is it. All boys want is skinny girls who have boobs and a butt something I don't have. They have to be pretty. Again ain't that either. But listen sometimes hearing them and saying they want this makes me reconsider to myself. Maybe I'm too fat. I mean when I sit down my thighs expand and I hate it. I can see my stomach growing and I don't want it to. So Prince Charming better love me for who I am, I'm not changing for you I only change for myself. Also one more thing. I'm not choosing you over my best friends. They stay and if u don't like it suck it up as they have been here longer. Anyway please come soon Prince Charming I could really use someone right now. 😞😞
