💔Heartbreak 💔

Rollercoaster at school

So today was a bad one. I woke up and knew it wasn't going to go right. I went to the shops before school which is where I always meet my friends and we sit there for a while before we walked to school. No words came from me. I didn't want to speak otherwise tears would form and a lot of people would see me. I just felt like crying all day and the day had only just begun so I stuck my headphones in and  just sat there listening to the music. I stayed like that with no peep of a noise. First period came around and still didn't want to talk and the same happened in second period. Recess came and I just wanted to go home and lock myself away. I sat with my legs in a ball and just listened to my music once again, just wanting to disappear. Third period was a little better. I was happy and laughing but still wanted to cry. I was fine for the rest of the day. There were still tears in my eyes but I made sure they didn't fall. There were shakes during classes but I tried my hardest to ignore them. The day was shit then got better then I got home and it just got shit again.

It's hours later and I'm shaking. Fearful of the world. What it has to say about me.