💔Heartbreak 💔

New year, same old posts

I realise that I have written on here in about 4 months but I feel as if that's going to change when school starts because no ones looking forward to that shit place but anyway that's not why I'm writing.

So I've just been laying here for the past around hour thinking which should never happen.

I literally feel like each day I'm disappointing someone new but not really a surprise to disappoint anyone is it? Because my name should literally just be disappointment. I'm just so upset as I reading one of my best friends stories who moved to England (😭💔) and realised that I'm actually such a horrible friend to her. I barely talk to her and know how she's going. It makes me feel so shit as I feel like I've lost her while my other best friend always talks to her and might even get to see her in July or something with her family. So if your reading this sorry I don't contact you so much but I miss you everyday 😭😭❤️

Anyway while I'm writing this I have a massive headache as I smashed my head on the wall for some unknown reason but kind of just want to keep doing it because I'm just sick of life tbh and all the mistakes I make and continue to make.

Honestly just wanna disappear from this earth because it's so cruel and I just make it worse ya know 🔫🔪

I guess that's all idek anymore

Xx