She Looks So Perfect (Luke Hemmings)+ extras

Chapter 14- Airport

~Nicole’s POV~

In a way, I was relieved that the team bus waited for me because I wasn’t in the mood to walk but at the same time I wasn’t in the mood to talk to any of them either. After talking to Michael, Ashton and Calum about Luke, it brought my mood down and all I wanted was to be left alone. But as always, as soon as I sat alone, everyone turned to me.

“Cap, you alright?” Val asked. I give her a smile and plug in my music. Somehow I found myself listening to the recording of Luke singing me the song he wrote me. Listening to his soft, angelic voice was only breaking me down even further than I already was.

“Simmer down, simmer down. They say we’re too young now to amount to anything else but look around; we work too damn hard for this just to give it up no. If you don’t swim, you’ll drown but don’t move, honey.” Hearing that line he told me, the line that got me to become who I am today, the reason I left America, it got me to feel my heart breaking.

“You look so perfect standing there in my American Apparel underwear. And I know now, that I’m so down. Your lipstick stain is a work of art. I got your name tattooed in an arrowed heart and I know now, that I’m so down.” Everything flashed back to me and I remembered when he first started writing the song and how each lyric in the song is true. None of it was made up. Especially that tattoo, it’s a permanent one and he still has it. He’s probably regretting it now and thinking about that only made me feel worse.

Someone poked me on the shoulder and they take my ear buds out. I look to see who it is and am faced with Val, Neta, Shae-Leigh, Franny and Vicky. All were looking at me with a worried look. Some were concerned and Vicky’s expression showed that she might have an idea on what happened.

“You’re not ok.” Neta says.

“I’m not. Alright? I’m not alright!” Vicky slips into the seat next to me as she brings my head down to be placed on her shoulder. She wraps her arms around me and that is when I begin to cry. Hard.

“What happened?” Neta asked.

“Luke and I broke up last night and now I feel really bad because he got a tattoo of my name and at the same time I know it has to be this way because he’s going to be going on tour and I might not see him again and I miss him and I just want to see him one last time before he leaves but he probably hates me now and I don’t know! Why am I such an idiot?!” I cried out and man did it feel good letting out all of my emotions but the bad thing was I couldn’t get myself together and we are on the way to practice and I just couldn’t keep myself intact.

Vicky continues to hold me and make sure I am alright; they gave me a hoodie to cover myself as we make our way in the rink. In the changing room, I managed to stop crying but I was in the part where I was silently dying as I stared at my phone.

 I should call him but at the same time I didn’t want to, knowing it’ll just make me cry again. I couldn’t really imagine seeing Luke cry for two hours. Let alone see him cry. It’d be the most painful thing to witness and to think that it’s because of me, only makes me feel worse.

Maybe he might come to my game tonight but he probably isn’t. As of this moment, I didn’t want to practice. Heck I didn’t want to play at tonight’s game either. Or any game. I just need to think right now. But I can’t and the team needs their captain, so I begin to get changed into my gear.

“Nicole, if you don’t want to practice you don’t have to. Maybe you should rest for the game. That’d be better.” Val says, giving me a pat on the shoulder. I nod and realize that is the best option for me right now. I get unchanged and put on my normal clothes before packing everything up and beginning to walk back to the hotel. Sniffling to myself. The hotel isn’t too far and once I am there I can cry all I want.