She Looks So Perfect (Luke Hemmings)+ extras

Chapter 22- I'm Giving Up on You

"Coma?" I stutter out "Luke is in a coma?!" It can't be good. No. no no. Luke can't be in a coma not now. Not ever! "GET HIM OUT OF IT! THERE MUST BE SOMETHING!!!" I shouted, I was losing control, Luke is in a coma. It repeated itself over and over in my head. Killing me. A mini stampede came into the room and I feel strong arms wrap around me. I tried to get out of their grip but I was too weak.

"NO! LUKE PLEASE JUST WAKE UP!!! LUKE, PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!" My vision goes blurry as the tears came. Whoever was holding me turns me around and holds me into their chest as I cried. I clutch onto their shirt feeling a sense that they are the source of recovery. But after being told that, I don't think I'll ever recover. Not without Luke. 

"Ssh, Nicole. It's just me." Michael. I feel his hands reach up to my head and he slowly plays around with it. In a way it was soothing but it didn't feel the same. Luke's hands felt different. It'll never be the same. Nothing will. "Calm down. It's ok." Through the pain I somehow managed to push Michael away.  

"OK? OK!?" I said through gritted teeth. "Nothing, and I mean it, nothing will be ok. Luke has fallen into a fucking COMA and you think things will be alright?!?!" I laughed. But it wasn't the funny kind of laugh; it's the kind of laugh you give to someone who thinks everything will be alright in a very serious situation. "What the fuck were you thinking Michael? Hey my best friend just fell into a coma and his girlfriend is freaking out. There is a possibility that he'll die, so I'll tell her everything is ok.' FUCK YOU MICHAEL!"  

Michael gave up on me and just walked away and out of the room. "Are you scared Clifford?" I shouted at him. I know he is outside and sitting down and I know he can hear me. "Are you fucking scared to face me? Are you humiliated by your stupidity!?" Since he's not answering, I continued. "WELL IT’S YOUR FUCKING FAULT!!! What gave you the idea that all this is ok? WELL AREN'T YOU FUCKING HEARTLESS??!"

"Nicole, stop. Please." Calum said, trying to place a hand on me but I swatted him away. "Michael is hurting just as much as you are."  

"Oh really?" I challenged, with a painful smile. "HEY MICHAEL! YOUR BEST FRIEND IS IN A COMA AND HE MIGHT DIE. BUT IT'S OK." Calum and Ashton both sighed in frustration. Clearly feeling the embarrassment they were getting because of Michael and I. "IF IT IS OK WITH YOU, I CAN START PLANNING HIS FUCKING FUNERAL!" 

"Nicole calm down. Arguing with Michael won't wake up Luke." Ashton spoke up.  

"IT MIGHT WAKE UP HIS FUCKING BRAIN!" My palms clenched tightly together. A couple of seconds I spent to gain my breath back, all this shouting at Michael was tiring. Eventually Michael comes storming back inside, hot tears coming out if his eyes and his face redder than ever. His neck veins popping out too. He was raging and I could tell. 

"Don't you dare to tell me what to do. I'm just as upset as your sorry Canadian Ass. Just because you're his girlfriend doesn't mean you get hurt more. Come to think of it, you guys aren't even together." Michael poked me on my shoulder and it only made me pissed off more I grab his hand and squeezed it hard as I put it away from me. Taking a deep breath in then out.  

"Actually." I started. Feelings the tears return. "We were going to get back together." I bite down on my lip as I nervously played with my fingers. "He was planning on proposing to me. He bought me a ring. It has my name on it. And to think that he was going to do that when I returned to Tampa and was out of Colorado, just makes me wish I should've told him. I should've told him about Gabe. I should've told him sooner."  

Biting down on my lip wasn't working anymore and I felt the tears returning. "I'm sorry." I push past Michael, Ashton and Calum. Rushing out of the room and ignoring the shouts from all my friends outside. I had no idea where I was going until I looked up and saw a sign. Looking at the babies is calming, right? Babies just look so peaceful and at ease. I follow the sign of the direction and stay quiet.