She Looks So Perfect (Luke Hemmings)+ extras

Chapter 15- The Plan

 “LUKE!” For the first couple of calls I didn’t hear because I didn’t want to believe it. “LUKE!” The person kept calling and calling me and I turned around to see who it is and I was surprised as hell when I was faced with someone kissing me on the lips. My eyes stayed wide open and I looked to see who it was. Clearly it’s a girl and when they separated from me I might as well have died.

“Nicole? What are you doing here?” I ask, surprised as hell that she’s here. Tears were present in her eyes and I quickly wiped them away before they were able to fall out. Nicole smiles painfully and it hurt me, I felt my heart breaking seeing her like this.

“I came here to see you. Before you left.”

“You did? But why?” Nicole’s eyes glare down and I lift her chin up. Her eyes refused to meet mine. “Hey, look at me. Please?” So she did. Her usual beautiful chocolate eyes were broken and that caused me to want to break down too. Both of us we’re breaking and I didn’t want to imagine how she looked like after we broke up. “Nicole?”

“My friends convinced me to come and your friends did too. Can I talk?”

“Yeah. Go ahead.”

“I’m absolutely sorry for how we ended things. I just didn’t want to, you know, have the hurt of dating you while you’re on tour and then worrying about what was going to happen. You know? I was afraid.” Nicole admitted. She sighs and I grab a hold of her hand and intertwined our fingers together. Feeling our hands together again felt really nice and I didn’t want to let go but I knew we would have to.

“It’s alright, I understand. But I would like to tell you that I never would have cheated on you. I love you too much to do that but if you want to end things because you still have doubts then I support you. I just hope you know I love you.”

“Luke there’s something else.” Nicole looks up at me but looks away immediately. “I want you to move on. Having a lingering feeling with someone you love is going to make things worse and I want things to be good for you. And I know that I’m not the person to make you completely happy and I feel like there is someone out there who will make you happier.” Nicole explains. I feel her retract her hand away from mine and she stuffs them in her pocket.

“You’ve always made me happy.” I say but Nicole doesn’t believe me and I just see her wanting to cry. I reach up to her cheek to wipe the tears away but she swats my hand.

“Please.” She whispers. “You’re going to become rich and famous and be all over the world. And I’m going to be stuck in America and playing on the ice all day. I would miss you too much.”

“But…”

“Luke, I’m sorry. I know it’s going to be hard but please understand.” I stop. How does she expect me to just move on from her? It’ll be impossible but having her here made the parting easier. So I simply nod. “I’m sorry.” Nicole starts to cry and I bring her in for a hug, this time she allows me to do so and I hold her close savouring the feeling of her in my arms, knowing this is the last time I will be able to do this.

“Look, I understand and the reason it’s hurting a lot is because for a while we pretended like we never had to end it but we knew we had to say goodbye. I’ve had the best time of my life with you and I hope you enjoyed your time with me. Sorry it has to be this way.” I kiss the top of her head and let it linger there for a while.

“Flight 273 heading for Los Angeles is ready for boarding.”

“Luke we’ve got to go.” Ashton says. I sigh and look at Nicole who smiles weakly at me.

“I guess this is it.”

“Yeah.”

“Good luck with the rest of the competition Nicole. I’ll be rooting for you.” I separate our hug and begin to take my steps back. “I love you.” I mouth to her. She smiles at me and then, just like before, with every step I took I could feel my heart ripping apart.