I don’t even know what life is anymore. Is it something compulsory for us to do until it decides to end itself? Or is it something we can do and just end it whenever we want? This is too much thinking for a 13 year old like me. Yeah that’s right I’m 13.
That makes it around 4-5 years since you have left Nicole and I still don’t know whether I should hate you or if I still love you with all my heart. It’s sad to think that I’ll never be able to tell you how I feel and it’s weird to think that I’m 13 and in love with someone who I last saw when they were 8. But it’s true Nicole, I love you.
Do I even know what love is? If it’s wanting to die because you’re not around, if it’s blushing whenever I think about you, if its laughing like a maniac every time I think of a funny memory, if that is love then yes Nicole Stamkos I, Lucas Robert Hemmings, am in love with you.
It’s a stab to the chest being in love with you. It’s like I’m being killed over and over again because of the fact that one moment I will be happy [thinking about you] and then I’ll be all fucking depressed [because I remember that you’re not here] and yes I just swore.
I swore because I’m mad. I’m mad because I am fucking losing it Nicole. I am losing myself. I need you. More than you will ever know <3
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She Looks So Perfect (Luke Hemmings)+ extras
FanfictionBOOK ONE IN THE NUKE SERIES “If you dont swim, you'll drown." 8 years ago Nicole left Australia to move to America with her father to pursue a sports career (thanks to her friend Luke). Since then she hasn't seen her best friend nor hav...
