Change of Heart

39

Previously.....

"Players don't ever quit the game."

"You don't date bros."

"You never know until you try.If you love her, I say at least tell her.

"You can go to her now."

"You have to tell her how you feel."

"I'm not a home wrecker. I may be wreckless but I'm not that bad."

"You deserve to be happy."

I just can't be that stupid.

I just can't do this shit anymore.

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Chaz POV

All right. She's in this hospital. I can do this. I have a chance.

I can't lose my chance.

"I can't believe I ever liked you" replayed in my head again.

Now I'm starting to question myself.

What if I already lost my chance? Why should I even try? I'm crippled anyways. One big movement and the pain starts.

"What the hell am I thinking? I can't go after her. First off, where the fuck am I going? I'm crippled as fuck"

"Oh yeah. I forgot." She says, as if she just remembered I was laying injured in this bed.

"Second off, trying would be a waste. I lost my chance." I state with dissappoint in my voice.

"How could you lose a chance if you didn't even try?" She asks

"Man, I know I lost my chance. I remember what she said. Even if it was out of anger, she said she couldn't believe she ever liked me" I tell her.

Then the door handle makes a noise and a hear the door opening.

I couldn't believe she came to me.

Jay POV

Chaz was going on, telling me how she thought she lost her chance with Lonnie. Then out of no where the door opened.

I was completely surprised to see her come through that door.

I don't even know how she knew what was going on.

"Hi" She says.

"..hi..." I say in return.

I started to feel kind of awkward.

"I'll uh... leave you two alone" I say awkwardly, creeping out of room before it got worse.

Bianca POV

I come to my senses and go to the hospital to see Chasity.

It was my fault she was there anyways. I couldn't just leave her there alone, but I should've known she wouldn't be alone cause she has friends that care about her.

When I got to her room, Jay was there.

I didn't want to be rude so I addressed her with a gentle hi.

She said hi back and left the room awkwardly.

Maybe it was weird to see me, but it just made it a little tense once she left.

I looked over at a bruised up Chasity and my heart just broke. I feel so terrible.

"I'm so.. sorry." I try to fumble up an almost worthy apology without telling the full truth. "If I didn't ask you to go to the gas station, you wouldn't be here right now."

"Listen. Don't even apologize, I went to make you happy, I chose to drive there in attempts to please you and keep you happy, ya know. Because you deserve happiness and I love to see you smile. And apologizing not gonna take it back or heal any of these bruises on my body."

She was right. Apologizing wasn't gonna make her any less hurt or in pain.

I swear she's too sweet and caring. I didn't deserve the chance to even be as much as her fake girlfriend. I don't want to keep lying to her, but I can't tell the truth either.

As much as she looks like she was hurt physically, I don't want to be the one to hurt her anymore than she already is.

"Chaz, you didn't deserve this one bit. You're sitting here in a hospital bed, when just a few hours ago you were home and perfectly fine. I feel so terrible."

She holds her hand out for me to go over and grab it. Hestitantly, I do.

She pulls me to sit down next to her on the bed.

I couldn't look her in the eyes, I felt so guilty and unforgivable. But then she just does it again. Charms her innocence and chivalry.

She lifts my chin gently and makes me look at her. And there's the eyes I didn't want to meet. Every second that I was staring into her eyes a piece of my heart shattered some more.

"Bianca, baby.."

Hearing her say my name and call me baby, almost broke me down. That wall holding back my river of tears was cracking and wearing down with every word she spoke.

"Do not blame my pain on yourself. This has nothing to do with you. I got myself in this situation. You just did an innocent act of asking for something simple."

My head drops again from all the lies she just doesn't know.

But she lifts it again until our eyes meet.

"I'll be okay. This is not your fault. I got myself in this situation. Not you."

I couldn't take it any more. My head immediately dropped onto her shoulder. I couldn't keep my compusure anymore.

The tears just came streaming down. I was crying and it was audible. So it wasn't a question to whether I was crying or not.

I can't believe I did all this to her. I never guessed K's plan would end up having Chasity sent to the hospital. Nor did I think I would actually fall for her in the process. Things are going so wrong. I wish I could make things right.

"Shh.  Don't cry. Everything is gonna be alright. I'm gonna get better."

She rubbed my back softly trying to comfort me, but I didn't deserve her comfort. Something inside of me made me really feel like being honest. So, I decided to finally be real and give her what she deserved, it's the least I could do. They say the truth can set you free and I hope it does.

I took a deep breath in and slowly let it out.

There was a moment of silence then it just came out.

"I love you."

Chaz POV

Bianca came in and my heart almost stopped. I don't know why..

I should be happy it was her and not Lonnie. I mean, I shouldn't even expect to see Lonnie, she made it clear how she felt.

I'm just surprised she even knew I was here, but that didn't really matter. I was pleased it was her at the door.

Jay left us alone to talk. Then come to my surprise, she came to me apologizing and blaming herself.

It was so sad to see her that emotional. It just broke my heart into pieces. My stomach was heavy like a bowling ball. Then to have her break down into tears broke me even more.

It almost made me feel bad for getting beat up.

Finally she stopped crying and took a breather.

I heard her say I love you. And that froze me solid.

Then to my surprise there was someone watching. I didn't hear the door open. I don't even know how much she heard, but all too fast this moment was becoming one of the most heart tearing moments ever.

"Lonnie."