Change of Heart

6

[ Saturday - Family Party ]

Jay POV

A woke up to a new kik message on my phone. It was from Lonnie. She said "See yall boys later today". It was the day of her party so I had to get up and get ready for that. I went to take a shower and wash up.

Lonnie POV

I was helping my mom out in the kitchen and there was a knock on the door.

"I got it" I said to my mom.

I opened the door to be presented with the presence of my cousin, Morgan and my Aunt Maria.

"Hey Auntie." I gave her a hug.

"Hey sweetie. Where's your mom? "

"She's in the kitchen."

She just flew past me and went inside. There was just Morgan.

"Wassup young blood"

"Girl get out my way." She pushed me to the side

"Auntie!! Morgan hit me!"

"You're such a fucking liar" She whispers strongly.

"Say that a little louder" I smirk

"You're so childish"

"You love me though."

"Don't touch me"

I love to mess with her. She may be in my same age range. That's because our dad's decided to impregnate our mom's at the same time. That's besides the point but me and her, we're close cousins. But I've always treated her like she was younger than me. She even started school after me, it was because of her mom but still. It's pretty cool now that she's in the same grade but I don't treat her differently I still treat her like shes the youngest.

I walk to my room and notice her on my bed "I love the outfit", I say to her.

"Shut up. You know your aunt is a trip. She is such a hypocrite. She told me I better not be gay. And when I brought up your name she said it fits you. And because your mom accepts it she says she won't judge you. What type of stupid shit is that. Ugh. She makes me so mad."

"Wow. That's some bullshit I've never heard before. She's just chooses to do that. That is messed up but hey. All you gotta do is stay low for this year and when we go to college you can be as free as a bird."

"But you know that's still messed up. Why can't she just accept me instead of threaten me? What type of mother intentionally makes their child feel like they don't love them and they don't deserve to live? Like I just don't understand. You're mom does it. Why can't mine?"

"Look. Just do like I do. Fuck the bullshit. Ignore the comments and opinions. You have your time at school to be free but just know when you come back home to reality you just have to compromise for their benefit."

She plopped backwards onto my bed just stares at the ceiling. I feel for her. It was tough when I first came out as gay.

Flashback ***

I've been holding back from telling my mom for a while now and I think today I'm ready to come out to her. I actually told my dad he said he doesn't care and he still loves me.

I walked inside the house and saw her and my dad at the dining room table talking together working on the laptop.

"Hey mom. Hey dad."

"Hey sweetheart. How was your day?"

"It was good"

"There's something I have to tell you guys."

Mom: What is it sweetheart?

Dad: You're not pregnant right?

My dad always asked that. That was basically his way of saying as long as you're not pregnant I don't care.

Well at least that's definitely something that won't happen soon.

And he's just playing it off because when we had the talk already. It was our secret to keep from mom, she just hates when he knows something and he doesn't tell her.

Me: No dad. But it's something serious and I just don't want you guys to hate me

Dad: Good. Then I'll still love you.

Mom: John let her talk.

Me: Well. This something I've been wanting to tell you guys but I never thought I'd be able to have enough guts to even say it but I want to be honest with you guys and I hope you both still love me like you say you do.

I took a deep breath then started talking.

Me: Mom and Dad. I'm a lesbian and no I'm not confused. I'm sure of who I am and this wasn't forced onto me.

Dad: Shoot. As long as there's no chance of you getting pregnant I don't mind.

Mom: You're so low minded. This is bigger than just that. So I can't have grandkids now?

Me: Yes you can ma.

Mom: Your choice is a sin to God. Thank god your brother is straight. At least I have one holy child. I don't approve of it but I still love you. Even though it's an abomination and you might be going to -

Dad: Lauren stop. She's still our same little girl. Who she dates doesn't affect us, that's her life. She's gotta live it through her choices and as her parents we gotta love her unconditionally.

Mom: I still love her. She just is not gonna be coming in my house dressing like a boy. That's TOO far.

Dad: Babe.

Mom: Don't babe me. I'm not just gonna watch my child dress like a boy.

*Flashback over*

That was the first night I told them. After that my mom held her stubborn ass grudge for a while but something happened which made her just love me for who I was. She didn't care. She finally became a mother. I still want to respect her so I just compromise with my looks she doesn't know I dress like a boy at school but what she doesn't know won't kill her. She does know I'm on the team though. She understands how much I loved to play and she couldn't stop me from that. Even if she tried.

That's why I feel for Morgan. I know how much it hurts. You just wish your parents would just love you. Unconditionally. Like a parent always should.

"Alright. Come on cousin I know what can get your mind off of this. You're too young to be stressing. Come on let's go cook."

"That's what makes you happy."

"Tomayto Tomato. Come on. Just listen to music while we cook get your mind off of things. This is supposed to be a party. Get off of the toilet."

"Oh Shut. Up."

Morgan POV

I tried to take her foolish advice and just listened to music. After all the helping with decorating and helping with food I decided to go back up to her room and take a nap.