Change of Heart

40

Previously....

-"How could you lose a chance if you didn't even try?"

-I couldn't believe she came to me.

-"Apologizing not gonna take it back or heal any of these bruises on my body."

-They say the truth can set you free and I hope it does.

-"I love you."

-All too fast this moment was becoming one of the most heart tearing moments ever.
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××Chaz POV××

There she was. I don't know how long she was there or how much she heard but I don't exactly know what to say.

"Lonnie."

Part of me wants to talk to her and part of me doesn't feel the need to try.

"Um... I uh... needed to talk to you but I see you're busy" She says before heading to the door.

I don't know whether to stop her or just let her leave.

××Bianca POV××

 I was sitting on the couch watching Bad Girl's club and I started to miss Chaz.

I let out a sigh.

I don't know if I can keep up this act anymore. I'm starting to fall for Chasity. Whether it's out of guilt or  from attraction. She's a really sweet girl and I know she doesn't deserve to be played like this.

I decide to call my cousin and tell her I can't do this anymore.

I dial her number and wait for her to answer.

"Yeah?" She answers.

"Kay, I can't do this anymore." I admit

"What you mean you can't do this. Girl, you owe me. You don't have a choice. " She hisses.

"Look I just can't keep hurting an innocent person to help you with your dirty work. She didn't deserve that. She didn't even do anything to you." I say

"When the fuck did you start feeling guilty? And when did you start having emotions? What's up with you?" She asks.

"Nothing, I-" She cuts me off.

"You got feelings for her, don't you?" She asks with a serious tone.

"No, I just-" I try to defend myself but she cuts me off.

"Look. The plan wasn't for you to catch feelings for real. It's an act. You know what that is. It's not real. You don't have feelings for her. And don't even think about getting paid if you think you just gone quit on me." She orders.

" You need to get your shit together, B. You owe me and you know it. Just do what I ask and don't mess shit up. It's almost over anyways. Your girl in the hospital cause of Lonnie and Jay now." She announces.

"What?!! How do you know that?" I ask. My heart starts to race. This is all my fault. I should've never told her to leave.

"How did she end up in the hospital? Get her to go to the gas station does not mean end up in the hospital." I say, getting heated up.

"You did what I told you to do and that's all that matters. Stop acting like you actually care. If you did, you wouldn't have done this in the first place. You made the choice to do this." She claims.

Are you kidding me? I made the choice?

"I asked you to do this. You said yes because you knew you owed me." She adds.

"I didn't have a choice. You wouldn't let me tell you no." I profess.

"Whatever.." She nags.

"Look. Since you want to be all emotional, I'll finish this shit on my own, but don't think you're gonna find her and it's gonna end up a happily ever after. She's gonna find out the truth about what you've done and your fake feelings won't be mutual because they're not real."

"I can't believe I helped you ruin someone's life" I say.

"You didn't help me Bianca. You did it by yourself. Lie to yourself all you want. We both know the truth. Your choices. Your actions. I didn't put a gun to your head. So stop being a bitch, and take fault for your decisions."

She has the audacity to flip the script on me and call me out my name.

"Call me a bitch one more time and see if you don't have a gun to your head" I snap.

"Yeah. Yeah. Go run to your FAKE girlfriend that you're the one lying to"

"Go to hell" I say.

"I'll see you there" She says back.

I hung up the phone.

××Lonnie POV××

I finally collected enough confidence to go to Chaz and talk to her.

After my talk with Morgan, I felt like it was time to be mature and actually talk about these feelings that were undeniable.

I had to at least try. I didn't want to just give up. We still had history together.

We know each other. We were best friends.

It was my fault she was in the hospital anyway so the least I could do was apologize.

I finally make it to the hall where Chaz's room is, and I see Jay.

"Yo Jay." I call out.

She notices me. I guess she was surprised to see me even in this hall.

"Lonnie?" She questions.

She stands up quickly. "Dude, what're you doing down here?" She asks

"What does it look like? I need to talk to Chaz. How is she?" I answer

"Oh. Um.. She's good.... She just uh.."

"Good. I'm gonna go talk to her. Wish me luck."

I open the door gently. I walked a few feet to get past the wall of the bathroom so I could actually see her.

 To my surprise, I walked in on Bianca crying on Chaz.

It was a bit awkward to witness her crying and being sad. Even more awkward to see Chasity comforting her  She still a snake and the main reason why Chaz and I aren't on good terms.

Finally she stopped crying, but then this chick wanna mess things up.

Out of no where you hear the words "I love you" come from her mouth.

 With the intentions that I came with,  it kind of broke my heart to heart her say that. It was just a moment away from hearing the one I loved say she loved someone else.

Suddenly, she looked at me. She looked so surprised and nervous. I don't know if she was happy to see me or upset that I even showed my face.

"Lonnie."

She says my name but mentally I'm still frozen and out of words to say.

I regain my ability to speak slowly.

"Um... I uh... needed to talk to you but I see you're busy"

I leave the room awkwardly. That hurt more than I could explain.

I guess that was life telling me it wasn't meant to be. Maybe I'm just meant to be a player. Love doesn't work for me.

I should've known.