Deranged

Deranged Chp. 19

Sky's POV

When I realized I was still awkwardly standing on a strangers doorstep, I thanked her for her kindness and left...

Harry was gone, just like that.

I curled up under the tree planted in the front of Harry's old flat. I know it wasn't his flat anymore and sitting in someone else's yard was weird. But as of now I could care less.

So I sat there silently crying under that tree.

Harry was gone, and I was left in the dark, alone... again.

I didn't chose Harry, but when I looked at him there was no going back. He loved me when I couldn't even love myself.

The front door of the flat opened, and the woman returned. "Are you Sky?" she asked. I only nodded my head, knowing my voice would crack if I tried to talk. "The boy that lived here previously, left this for you.." the woman handed me a piece of paper, or several stapled together, and returned to her new flat to finish unpacking. What a nice woman not to care that I'm sitting under her tree crying and slowly becoming her new lawn ornament.

Anyway, I unfolded the letter with my shaking hands and silently read it to myself.

"Dear Sky,

I like you, I really do.. but i'm scared. You are such a fragile girl with broken promises and a broken heart. I wasn't going to add to that brokenness. I said I'd be your anchor, but I wasn't going to keep you safe, I was only going to damage you more. I'm slowly sinking to the bottom and I'm not taking you down with me. You deserve so much better than me Sky. It's crazy, because I never knew you'd become this important to me. It's like a snowstorm, you see the flakes falling but you don't realize how much they're adding up. All your little things added up and I had to get out while I could, while you were still ok. Go your own way Sky, and I'll go mine. I'm stronger than you think I am, and I think I'll be ok. Take me and my memories and burn them out of your mind, forget them all. But Sky, believe me when I say I'll always think about you, even when I'm busy. And just remember that I'll spend the rest of my life trying to find someone like you. I've never met someone like you Sky, and I care for you more than anyone, so this is why I'm saying goodbye.

Goodbye Sky...I'm sorry I couldn't be your anchor."

He didn't know how wrong he was.

This wasn't goodbye...

It can't be and it won't be. I refuse to let the only person that ever actually cared for me leave...

So what if he was some deranged monster...

Maybe I am too...

He thinks I deserve better, but I don't think there is anyone better... In fact I know there isn't.

Harry's POV

My new flat was nothing like my old one... Change was hard but I'd rather change my address than hurt the person I loved most.

The wind whistled outside, while the sound of rain drops began to tap on the roof.

The remaining boxes were stacked in a corner in the living room. I randomly chose one and sorted through it.

Just my luck, I chose the one with Sky's ribbon in it that she'd left behind one night. Her smell was pleasantly wrapped within the soft fabric. Her smell soothed me in ways that were undescribable!

I missed her. Missed her so much my heart seemed to ache. I wanted to run to her house, take her into my arms , and just never let go.

To think I ruined it with the girl I loved with every part of myself, shattered me. She was everything I needed but my deranged self went and ruined my dreams of us being something. We could've been something I know it.

My thoughts were hindered by the gentle sound of tapping on my door.

"Can I help- Sky?

How'd you find me?

You need to go!" I managed to stutter.

"No, move aside Harry!"

Her eyes were red and irritated, implying she had been crying. "Hary sit your ass down and listen! I like you, you know may even love you. Sure I'm fragile and broken, but that's ok, because we're all a little broken!

You ARE my anchor and always will be. If you sink then I sink with you! I never imagined someone could be this important to me but you proved me wrong Harry. If you go your own way, then that's fine, but when you turn around I'll be right there following you.

The best kind of people are the ones who come into your life unexpected and make you see the sun where you only saw clouds, you did that for me Harry. Because of you and your odd belief in me, I'm beginning to believe in myself again.

They say nobody cares until it's too late, but it's never too late and you proved that to me.

Harry if you ask the moon what I stay up thinking about, don't be surprised if it says ,"You". This is not the end of us Harry, it's just the beginning.

NEVER say goodbye to me Harry, because saying goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting and I never want to forget you!"

At that point Sky was in tears and struggling to talk straight. I felt my heart begin to ache...

"I thought leaving would be best for you... I thought I'd disappoint you and only damage you more Sky"

"You disappointed me more by leaving Harry! You said you'd fix me right? Well now it's my turn to fix you..."

Her tears were falling faster now and her shirt suffered the consequence.

My instincts told me to tell her to leave, but sometimes our instincts are wrong...

I grabbed Sky and pulled her toward my chest, holding her closer and tighter than ever before. Her tears wetted the front of my shirt while I softly stroked her hair.

"Sky, maybe it looks like I don't care, but inside I'm screaming for you to stay with me..."

Sky looked up at me through her watery, irritated eyes, "It's ok Harry, because I heard you screaming... Don't you see...that's why I'm here...