wolfstar oneshots 💕 (Finished)

18. azkaban

There is a song behind this story. Its called it will rain by Bruno Mars.
Go on listen to it and if you have, just imagine the singer to be sirius. But some of the lyrics fixed remus. But either way its heart breaking.
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11 pm ministry of magic

"Remus J. Lupin you will say your last goodbyes to the prisoner now we will give you 1 hour" the guard looked at remus painfully. Turns out the guard knew remus from a book club they had and he knew the relationship me and remus had.

"He is not a killer to me, you dont
have to guard me inside" he whispered to the guards outside and stepped inside my temporary cell before i get shipped off to azkaban.

"Hey siri how are you doing ? Not well i suppose. Same here" remus said sitting down next to me. His scent of chocolate and lavender so close. He leaned to my ear and said "i will kill peter pettigrew my self" and he hugged me while the tears came down.

I cant hold my tears any longer. I cried freely in his shoulder. My life with him is over for good. Im sentenced to azkaban. I will never get out until i die.

And james and lily. Dead and gone. What have we became. The once good marauders. No traitors, no friends who met death or lonely loves.

My storm has came and it will never leave until i am free. Which is never.
And harry... im his Godfather. And i am the worst at the job.

Remus and i just sat there. Talking and murmuring memories. The good times to fill my head. The time when james charmed moon lanterns to float at our wedding.

The time when lily scolded me for drinking some of harry's formula. The time when remus and i would jump on the bed, listening to rock music. And i will end up in his arms.

"Sirius dont leave me again. You will get out of there one day i know it." Remus said while wiping his tears. Then him moving my head and wiping my tears. He kissed me on my nose and remind me to remember good memories to fight off the dementors.

"Remember when james and lily were with us and we just had a day off in the beach. Remember harry sirius remember harry. Remember harry for me" he said trying to fight back the tears "remember me siri remember our life before this before the war" he smiled at me. The small scar beside his lip wrinkled into the smile.

The 1 hour ended and he left me with a kiss. And the darkness came back to me.

They shipped me to my new cell in azkaban the next 2 hours. The dementors swirled around me. I am their new source of joy. But i kept my head. I remembered the joys of my life. The tears did came down eventually but im sane. I am sane. I am alive. And i am happy inside.

James and lily. Them dancing with lily's beautiful white wedding dress. James' handsome face, wrinkled into a smile in my head. I saw baby harry. Very cute. Laughing and grabbing my hair. His small fat hands pinching my face. Hugging me and pulling on my leather jacket. Boy i miss my jacket.

Tonks and andromeda. The pink haired girl who laughed at my jokes and made the best tea. Then regulus, he died but he is still my brother. I remember him telling me to be careful of mother. Then remus. I miss him already. His chocolate smell and his face features. All his scars that i know myself. His bright smile and laughed at my worst puns. Those full moons he will spend alone without me. But i am sure he will be strong.

I will be strong for him. For harry. I will be sane. I will get out. I will make it.

I didnt know i will be here for the next 12 years.

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I feel sad myself writing this.
-rena :'(