wolfstar oneshots 💕 (Finished)

91. A love letter

"Dear Re,

Sorry, I didn't bother waking you up before leaving for work. You looked too comfortable under the blankets. I thought of slapping myself, you were unearthly. Very bad for my heart.

Oh cmon stop rolling your eyes I know you love my letters. Its not everyday you get a letter from THE Sirius Black, am I right ? Of course, I am.

My mind wandered this early morning. Excuse you I woke up at the ass crack of dawn and I couldn't help but to look at you. Then I remembered every deep conversation we've had.

Some of it were about me. My family, my art, my job, my hair, my tattoos or my stubbornness. Then its about you. Your looks, your internal worries, things that kept you up at night.

I just want to remind you that you make my heart race. So fast that it makes my life slow down. Like how earth revolves so fast, we basically feel still.

You make me stop. You know how jumpy my train of thought goes. But you, in your nasty christmas sweater from 5 years ago and bed head, only you can make me stop and reroute like a broken machine.

I look at you and I suddenly remember of everything good. That maybe this world wasn't so, cold. Maybe in this wrecked wasteland of capitalism, I can relish in something so good.

I look at you and I thank my lucky stars that I was able to. That life didn't choose to take me to the after. That the author decided to prolong my character to live next to yours.

There are 7 billion people on this planet and I conveniently run into you. Out of all these people, you chose me. Me, a broken china doll pieced back together with cheap dollar store glue. You thought, "Ah this, this is the person I'd want to trouble myself with." I'm lucky.

My feelings, my conscious thoughts, my heart, my logic, defines far more than love. It makes the most powerful emotion, so little. It has lost its meaning in my translation to tell you, "I love you".

So it hurts me everytime I see you hating yourself. I want to help. I want to make you see what I see. I want to make you feel the warmth in my chest everytime you hold me.

You look in the mirror and you say the stupidest shit. That's why I always intervene by pulling you away, kissing you away. If I had the ability to fill your head the way you filled my heart, God I'd do it.

Your name rolls off my tongue like how a prayer rolls off a priest's. A chant I sing myself to remind me of an angel that allowed me to see them.

I hate you for this though. You made me lean into you so much. Let me overstay my welcome into your heart. That I don't see myself leaving anytime soon. But I won't be afraid, I know I can let myself unravel under you.

I'm sappy I know. A hopeless poetic romantic. I rarely pull this stunt. You know how much I hate writing. My letters look like utter crap but I can assure you, what I say is very much true. Or I hope I phrased all these correctly.

Now, go on your day. I hope you caught my idea cause I really don't know how to explain this any further. You make me fall so hard, I just let myself fall. "

Remus felt like he was liquid. Knees weak, heart pounding and a dumb smile on his face. Who knew Sirius was such a romantic ? (Remus knew from the start but let's play dumb)