Not everyone, not you

Chapter 1 - Betrayed

Lexa's POV

Why did I do that? I thought to myself. I just risked every chance I had to make peace with Skaikru because I was thinking about my people first. And Clarke. She trusted me and I ruined every chance I had to be with her.

Titus walked into my throne room. He knows I have feelings for Clarke, I keep sending out groups outside of Polis to find her.

"You know how much power Wanheda holds. When we find her, you must kill her. Queen Nia of Azgeda is after her too. If she kills her, the coallition will break and she will most likely go to war with Trikru." he said to me while I had my back turned to him.

"I am not killing Clarke. She does not deserve to die. I need to keep her safe from Nia. The best way of doing that is finding her and bringing her here and letting her live as one of us, not killing her." I yelled at him.

"Heda-" he tried to say but I cut him off.

"Are you questioning me?"

"No, I'm simply trying to help you make the right decision"

"I know what I am doing Titus. I am the Commander, nobody questions me. Clarke comes here. End of story."

"Love is-" not this again.

"Titus, I have told you several times that love is not weakness. When Costia's head was delivered to me, I still let Azgeda join the coallition. I am more than capable of seperating feelings from duty." I yelled in response.

"Moba, Heda" he replied as he left the room.

I hated when he tried to tell me that love is weakness. I thought to myself. Clarke has made me realize that it's strength. I needed to find her soon before Nia does. I know what she is capable of.

Titus walked in again.

"A group has returned."

"I'm sending another group and going with them. You are to make sure nothing happens and send someone if Wanheda is found. Do not let me down Titus."

"Sha, Heda. Good luck"

"Mochof, Titus"

I walk out of the room and see a group of warriors waiting for me. I grab myself some food and water and lead the group into the forest to start searching for Wanheda. I need to find her before Nia does. I can't lose her. I love her. We get to a grounder village before dark and we rest for the night.