Not everyone, not you

Chapter 2 - Wanheda

Clarke's POV

The only thing keeping me alive is Niylah and the trading post. I havent hunted at all until Lexa left me at Mount Weather. I couldn't go back to Arkadia, so I decided I would just live in the forest. I've barely eaten in three months.

Lexa. I thought to myself. She betrayed me. She left me there to die, my people included. She's the reason I'm here. I never want to see her again.

I head to the trading post to talk to Niylah. She should know what's going on with the Commander. As I arrive at the trading post, I notice two men standing outside. I felt my stomach drop. This isn't what I was expecting, I might as well go inside anyways, maybe it isn't what I think it is. I feel myself calm down a little bid, but still nervous.

I walk in and see two people at the back talking. I can only see Niylah's face. When she sees me I can see the worry on her face. I listen to the conversation going on.

"Osir ste lufa Wanheda au. (We are looking for Wanheda)" That's definitely Lexa, shit.

"Heda, Wanheda ste nou hir. (Commander, Wanheda is not here)." I hear Niylah respond in my defence. I know she's lying because she saw me walk into the building.

"Very well den, ai will keep looking" I heard her reply and slowly walk towards the exit, where I was standing. My heart started racing and I was getting nervous.

"Clarke? Is that you?" Lexa was looking at me. She was worried about me, I knew she was.

"What do you want Lexa?" I replied with anger in my voice.

"I just wanted to talk to you. About what happened at Mount Weather. I am sorry about what happened, as soon as I got-" I cut her off.

"I don't want to hear it Lexa. You left me there to save my own people after you agreed to helping me. I trusted you with my life. With my people's lives and you threw it away as soon as you were offered your people at the cost of mine." I raised my voice.

"I know what I did Clarke, it was the wrong decision and I know it. It haunts me every night when I go to bed. I couldn't sleep knowing you were out here, alone and scared. I couldn't stop thinking about what would've happened if I had rejected that deal. Maybe we could have saved our people together. I was selfish Clarke, I know and I am sorry. You don't have to forgive me, I understand if you don't, but I just needed to tell you how I felt. Not once did you leave my mind these past few months Clarke." she said with tears forming in her eyes.

"Why did you want to find me?"

"Because I care about you, Clarke. You are Wanheda, whoever kills you gets your power. I am not letting anyone kill you. I want to keep you safe. I need you to come back to Polis with me to ensure you are safe"

"Why should I trust you Lexa? Last time I did that I was left alone to save my people alone."

"You don't have to trust me. You don't have to come with me, it's just my way of apologizing for what I've done to you. Also, Queen Nia of Azgeda is who I am mostly protecting you from, if you were curious." she replied as she looked down to the floor and broke eye contact with me.

"Fine. I'll come back with you. But I haven't forgiven you. Not yet." I replied.

Goddamnit. I thought to myself. I shouldn't go with her, but on the other hand this will serve as a test to see if I can truly trust her.