Be A Girl

Feeling At Home With Your Body

Reason #2 I'm writing this: Because you deserve a fairytale ending.

Feeling at home with your body: Obesity and Anorexia be damned!

"To be overweight on a college campus is to be invisible at best, and too visible at worst. It’s harder to make friends when you’re overweight, but everyone notices when you fall down a flight of stairs." -Alexandra Tashman 

"I skinned so much of myself to fit in, now when I look in the mirror, I don't recognise myself. I've turned into a monster." -Pink Fighter who doesn't want to share her name.

As girls, we are all insecure. Some of us don't show it. Some can't help but show it. But in the end, we all feel it.

Me? I was fat. So I know how it feels. When you can't wear what you want, can't eat infront of people because it feels like their eyes are filled with mockery! When you just want to hide your whole body when your infront of people because..you're ashamed.

The thing is, when you are fat, you think it's the end of the world. NOT because it's that big of a deal..but because everybody judges you for it. The guy you are dying for doesn't see you unless you lose the weight. The perfect dress doesn't fit and..your mum doesn't always remember to hide that look of pity in her eyes. You think that will all end. The bullying, the whispers, the jokes, the "accidental" pushing off the stairs will all end with the weight.

But it doesn't.

Once I lost the weight, nothing changed. The guy found something else to "not like me for", the dress always seemed to have a smaller size that I wanted more, the mum? The mum still hid some pity for her poor girl that's starving herself to death. And the accidental tripping just continued.

My 20 kilos goal turned into 25. Then 30 and so on. It never seemed enough. There was always a kilo after the one I lost. The days seemed to be shorter. The dresses smaller. There wasn't any way fast enough for me to lose weight...I wasn't sure what I wanted to be anymore. Frankly, I was turning into that type of girls who don't eat anything..and I used to make fun of those! But now I understand.

I understand why anyone would be so obssessed with losing weight and frankly, if I can say anything, I'd say "FUCK WHAT THEY THINK!"

Just stopped.

Look at yourself in the mirror.

And ask yourself why isn't that enough.

Damned! Why can't you see? You were fine 30 kilos earlier. And ARE STILL FINE! Fat, chubby, skinny, you are who you are. The guy who doesn't want to talk to you because you are too fat/skinny doesn't deserve you to begin with! He is just a complete jerk that is practically screaming "I will only ever want you for your body". You don't need a boy to feel good about yourself. They are just like us. Insecure. Tired. And they have no idea what the hell they want with life!

Take a minute. Take a deep breath and ask yourself: Why do I want to lose weight?

If it's to please someone. Then your journey has a dead end cause frankly, a guy who doesnt see you as you are isn't the one.


Don't drown yourself in the idea that people will love you more if you lose weight. Cause they never do. Society is a bitch. Want prove? Read this..it's actually a true story written by Alexandria Tashman

"One night, in the middle of my second year, as I was jogging along and completely out of breath, I heard someone laugh. Then several people laughed, before they were shushed by the rest of their friends.

I looked over to see a group of guys sitting in the bleachers. They were looking right back at me. Another one laughed loudly before being silenced again.

It took me about a minute to realize they were laughing at me – the idea of my jogging was funny to them. Fat people running has been a comedic trope in film and television for decades, and in an instant I had gone from normal human being to Chunk from “The Goonies.”

Humiliated, I slowed to a walk as one guy kept laughing. I don’t think I’ve gone jogging since."

First, I would like to point out that Alexandria (the girl who was jogging) is now very happy with herself. She's a very proud of how she looks now and all she took the time to share her story JUST to raise awareness that it is their bloody problem that they cant accept you for who you are.

Which brings me back to my point! It's not your fault people are so damn superficial! In fact! If a guy laughed at me cause I was a fat girl jogging I would probably stomp over to him and use my fat hands to cut his member and shove it down his thoart! Then I would use my fat legs and stomp on him repeatedly till his skinny ass is evened with the ground and he's gushing blood like a pancake with strawberry syrup!  Then, I would innocently go back to my jogging and dare him to comment on my fat awesomeness!

No one deserves the hell of going through a diet..but you! Respect yourself and...be who you are! I swear it will make you feel way differently.

Being fat or skinny or whatever doesn't matter. It doesn't solve your problems, I swear. What does? Believing in yourself. You can make everyone go crazy if you just believe in yourself. I know it's hard. But try. Remember that spark you had when you were little? The fire inside of you that they put down with their hate? I know it's hard, but let it shine again. Let it guide you. Listen to it as it screams the same words you used to believe in so much. "I am enough.". Listen to it scream that..and believe in it!

The only reason which should make you want to lose weight is HEALTH. I repeat: HEALTH!

And even then, never take it too hard on yourself! Staying healthy is yes important. But eating an apple a day and skipping lunch doesnt count as healthy (Don't kid yourself!) 

Being beautiful is having a pretty mind, a pretty soul and a pretty heart. And maybe right now while you read this you'll think "whatever. You never get anything unless your hot." But let me tell you, I'm not smoking hot, thin, pretty or even smart! But I gained self-acceptence over the time. And it.......it made me at peace with the world. And, well, once I stopped trying to change myself, believed in who I am and stood up for myself, nothing else mattered.

That's why I'm writing this. I want you too to feel the same. Because it's just...incredible. I feel so good about myself I just want to share the feeling with everyone else. I feel terrible because I know how much you're suffering to lose/gain weight..when I know it doesn't matter. You don't deserve this. I swear. And I wish I can show you that. But I'm terrible with words. I can never describe to you how crazy this seems. How crazy it is to find such a brilliant lady feeling like she's not even worth living.

Oneday, Someday, you will believe me. And you will shine. Because you already are shinning from the inside. You just need to believe in yourself in order to let other people see the glow.

You know, maybe she was right, we are fighters. beautiful fighters...we are pink fighters. Even if someone just told me it makes us sound like angry flamingos.

If you need to talk I'm always here. Just text me..you're not alone!