Be A Girl

Lost

Reason #13 I'm doing this: You're stronger than you thing!

"Sometimes the hardest thing ang the right thing are the same."

"People change. Memories don't."

I keep saying this. Be yourself. But now I'm stuck wondering the exact thing: but who am I?

I don't know who am. Is that what they call lost? Because frankly, it feels like everyone my age is like that. We don't know what we want. But most importantly, we don't know what we are.

For me, it is even present in the small things. There comes times when I start to feel like the people closest to me don't know me. They don't understand me. And I can never explain myself to them because even I don't know what I'm feeling.

I'm sick of being lost. Not being understood. But the thing is, I don't get how I can be lost when I don't even have a destination I'm supposed to go to? I'm not making sense, am I?

What I am trying to say is, I decide which road I take. I decide where I want to go. So how come I'm lost when I can decide anywhere I want to be my home?!

Yea, I'm still not making sense. But this is it! I'm not making sense because I'm not making sense in my own mind! I'm lost in my own mind.

I need a new prospective.

I need space?

I need to stop being so dramatic and get away from everything for a while before everyone hates me. What I need is a vacation away from everything so I can actually find who I want to be.

I'm sorry guys, I am actually going on a vacation but it's more than just that. I'm not planning to write anything anymore. Other than Be A Girl, I think I dont want to continue the other two stories.

I don't know if anyone whould even care. I don't know if I want to stop writing, to start with. Heck,  I don't know why I'm writing this ON HERE AND WASTING YOUR TIME!

I'm just tired? I don't know anymore. All I know is I need a break for a while. Sorry, I'm going to be offline for a couple of days.. probably weeks. I think this is the first time I apologize for not being here when someone needs to talk.

But I promise I'm not letting you go. I'm still here, I just need to catch my breathe. I'm sorry for letting you down.

Be Safe.