Falling From The Floor

Moments In Time

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

                     EARLY MORNING

"Okay, Cai. Let us know if you have any problems today." I said in a serious voice. "Okay, Mommy." She said as she fixed her backpack. "Don't let anybody make you feel as if you don't belong. Tell if they do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable." I said as I wiped something off her face. "Mommy." She said in a whiny voice as she moved away from me. "Come here." I said as I pulled her closer and wiped her face again. "You keep treating me like a baby." She said in a whiny voice. "You are my baby." I said as I laughed a small laugh. "No, I'm your big girl. That's your baby." She said as she touched my stomach. "You're both my babies." I said as I smiled. "You're never gonna stop calling me your baby, huh?" She said. "Nope." I said as I gave her a hug. "Okay, Cai. It's time for you to go. Your teacher is waiting on you and I don't want you to be late to class. Put your things away and go take your seat." I said as I opened the classroom door for her. "Are you going to eat lunch with me today?" She asked me. "Yes baby." I said. I almost forgot about that. She smiled really big. "Can Daddy Come too?" She asked me. "I can ask him. Daddy does have to start back working today." I said. "It's okay. As long as you come." She said. I smiled. She then went to go take her seat and started her work. I left to get in the car and went home.

                       AT THE HOUSE

"Hey Tony." I said as I put my things down. "Hey...." He said as he looked at some papers. "What's that?" I asked him as I looked at the papers in his hands. "My family is wanting me to go over their house and help them with this funeral. Just me...." He said. "Oh...." I said. Tony's family never really liked me. I didn't know why they didn't but they never did. I was never invited to family gatherings anymore after I worked long hours and didn't give Tony any romance time. I guess he told them and they started to feel as if I wasn't a good wife to him or as if "I just wanted a man on my side to just show off" or "I'm too independent and didn't care about him"....which wasn't what it was. I am independent but I love Tony. I wanted to make time for him but things didn't go the way that I wanted it to go. "Its best if you were to stay here anyways. You know, Cai has school and I have to leave in two days." He said. "Yeah, I have some Mommy duties. I know.....it's always me by myself anyways." I said. "Huh?" He said as he grabbed my hand and held it. "I got it, Tony. You go and be with your family. This is your Dads funeral." I said. "Okay..." He said as he looked at me. I walked off. "I love you." He said as he stood up straight. "I love you too." I said. "I'm about to go over there right now. You want me to pick up Cai after school?" He asked me. "Yes, that would be nice." I said.

                 LATER ON IN THE DAY

I was kinda getting frustrated with being stuck in this house most of the time. All I ever did was take care of my baby while Tony went to work. I'm not complaining but I need to get out more. I know that I'm pregnant and all but I can't continue doing the same things everyday. Sometimes I feel as if I'm not even being a good wife to Tony. Jut thinking about his family and the things that they said about me a while ago- it continues to make me feel horrible. I know that he cheated on me but I can't even be mad at him about that anymore. I'm not, actually. Right now, I'm feeling as if I'm not being the best that I can be when it comes to him. I keep holding things against him and that's not what I should do. I know that he's done some horrible things in the past but he is getting better. I can clearly see that he wants to be a better husband for me. I just don't feel like I'm being the best wife for him. "Hey babe." Tony said as he opened the front door and had Cai on his back. "Hey." I said as I sighed. "What's-.....Cai, go and get your things ready for tomorrow, Okay?" Tony said. "Ok Daddy. Hi Mommy." Cai said as she hugged me. "Hi, baby." I said as I smiled and looked down at her. I hugged her back. She then left to go upstairs. "What's wrong?" He asked me. "Huh?" I asked him. "You look as if there's something on your mind." He said. "I was just thinking about a few things. That's all." I said. "Let me hear it." He said. I just started crying. "Cheryl.....tell me, baby." He said as he touched my waist. I tried to stop crying and to hold the tears back but my emotions were already all over the place as it is. "I just feel like-....when you brought your family up earlier today, I continued to feel like I'm not a good wife to you. They always said it all the time. To my face. It's just hard for me to let that go because I'm trying. I really am. I want to be a good wife to you. It's just lately, I've been slacking I feel. You've been trying to be a better husband but I keep holding things against you. I'm tired of holding things against you. I just want you to love me and-.....I don't know." I said as I looked away from him. He pulled my head back towards him. "You are a good wife. Don't listen to my family. You're a great wife, baby. A wonderful wife. Don't put that on you.....I was in the wrong. Come here." He said as he pulled me into him and hugged me. "I apologize." I said as I hugged him back. "Don't apologize, baby. There's nothing to apologize about,  baby." He said. "You're a great husband. We are getting better together." I said. "I'm getting better for you and our babies." He said as he put his hands on my stomach. I smiled. "I hate it when you cry." He said as he wiped my face. I looked down. He then pulled my face up and kissed me. "It's hard but we will get through this." He said. I nodded my head and agreed.

- Work with me....I'm trying to work on this book more. It's hard, honestly. Imma start back updating BOTH Twice The Forever AND this book. ❤️