Falling From The Floor

Ring Finger 💍

           CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

After Shemar and I talked about this entire situation- I was completely confused now. Looking at the mess I've made, I felt horrible.
When I got back home, I just tried my best to rush to go to bed. I didn't want to talk to nor see Tony tonight. I already knew that Ciyle and Cai we're asleep but Tony was awake. He was probably anxiously waiting for me to come home. He knew that I was over Shemar's house and he knew that there was a chance for the two of us to get carried away. Not this time- never again. I slowly made my way upstairs as slowly and quietly as I could- I didn't want to wake the babies up. There were so many emotions inside of me right now- I wanted to cry. I could feel the pressure from behind my eyes- the tears were dwelling up already. Don't cry- don't let Tony see you cry. Don't do it, Cheryl.

I walked into the bedroom and saw Tony watching TV. I walked in, looked at him and put my things down. He shifted in bed and sat up a little bit.

"Hey..." Tony said in a soft voice. I looked back at him.

"Hey..." I said as I then turned back to put my things away.

"I-...uhm, how was your day?" He asked as he pulled the covers back and started to get out of bed. I got nervous because I knew that he was making his way over to me. Don't touch me. Not yet.

"It was good." I said as I took a deep breath and turned around. He startled me. He was right there.

It was silent between us. I didn't look him in his eyes. I looked at his chest and I could see that even he was nervous as well. We haven't been this close to each other in a long time. I then looked up at him and in his eyes. He then reached down and grabbed my left hand. I watched him as he did this. His hands were so warm and soft. He pulled my hand up, took his other hand and put my wedding ring back on my ring finger. I started to tear up at this because after all I've done, he still wanted me.

"I remember the day that I put this ring on your finger and the way my heart felt. Seeing your beautiful self walking down that isles and me feeling like I was the luckiest man on the entire planet. I finally found the woman of my dreams and I wanted to give you every single thing that your heart desired. Even if it costed me everything. I'm a fool for you Cheryl Ann. I really am and I still am. I just want my wife back. From you walking down the isle, having our two beautiful children, us having hard times and fighting through them- I'm willing to do it. I just need you on board, baby. There's nothing that I wouldn't do to get you back. I love you so much and you mean so much to me. Please say that you love me back, forgive me for not giving you attention and come back to me. Come back." Tony said as I could see the tears falling from his face and his voice started to crack.

Now I was crying as well. I took my thumb and wiped away his tear falling down his cheek.

"I'm back." I told him as the tears kept coming. He then grabbed me and pulled me into his chest.

It all started with forgiveness. It wasn't easy but he did it...just like I had to do it. We never really know what we have until we mess it all up. I messed up and fell into a fairy tale. The thing is, if a man isn't doing what you want him to do- tell him. If he isn't giving you attention- tell him. Talk to him. I fell in love with my best friend and I'll admit that. I gave my precious love to somebody else in the same sheets that I promised God and my husband that I'd never share them with no other. We both messed up but maybe messing up opened our eyes. Knowing me? I'll never do it again. Knowing him? He'll never do it again. We have our babies to raise together and our love to build to get stronger. My love for Tony will never fade, even if I tried to deny it. Never be in love with two men at once- it's not good for your heart, your soul nor your conscious. Forgiveness. I welcome myself to it. 💕

STAR/VOTE ❤️ call it bullshit but they needed to get back together for those babies. 🤷🏾‍♀️😍