Falling From The Floor

Who Called? 👀

TONY's POINT OF VIEW

I just looked down at Cheryl's phone and just thought to myself. Her being unfaithful was my fault, just like my unfaithfulness was her. Yet, we both had enough self control during the moments but we didn't feel like putting it into effect. We failed each other.

"Who called?" A voice asked. I rushed to turn around and I saw that it was Cheryl standing there looking half awake from the short nap she took with Cai.

"Shemar." I said truthfully. Gotta start somewhere.

"What did he want?" She asked me as she came over towards me and grabbed the phone from out of my hands.

"He wanted you..." I told her. She looked at her phone and just nodded her head.

"Alright, I'll call him later." She said as she turned to go back upstairs.

"Wait....Cheryl. We need to talk about this. We can't keep putting it off and going on with our lives as if nothing has happened..."

She slowly turned around to look at me. I suddenly became nervous because the look on her face made my heart drop. Maybe she didn't love me anymore after all...

"You probably can't...but I can."

"You don't mean that." I said as I looked down and stuffed my hands in my pockets.

"Or maybe I do? What more can we do? Like I've said countless times, we can't fix this. The only reason that I'm here is for my two children."

"I know you, Cheryl. I know that you're not the type of person to give up. You're not and I want you to help me. Help me fix this together. I can't do it on my own. I can't read your mind. Tell me what it is that you want me to do. Just tell me because we can figure this out. I wouldn't want you to stay somewhere just because of Cai and Ciyle. We can do this the right way but you need to communicate with me and tell me what it is."

"Fine. I'll tell you what it is. I don't know what I want to do. I just don't and I wish that I did but I don't. I have never been so torn apart and left to think about who it is that I love. I've always been set on being in love with somebody but at this point, I don't know. Yeah, I've made a mistake but damn...can I get a moment to myself to think. I came back home, now let me think."

"I don't want you to choose me if you have to think about it." I told her straight up.

"Well, there's your answer." She said as she then left.

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW
LATER ON

"I had to come back home." I told Shemar as I walked into his house. He closed the door behind me and stopped to look at me.

"You....went back home?" He said to me.

"Yes, I had to. Cai needs me and I'm going to be there for her." I told him.

He took a deep breath and just put his hands on his head.

"What's wrong?" I asked him as I looked at him. He looked like he just didn't know what to do with himself at that moment.

"This is what I didn't want to happen. All of this is hurting Cai and I hate this so much." He told me.

"I hate it too and I hate that all of this unevenness is occurring."

"Maybe we should stop." He said as he looked at me.

"Why?"

"Because...I don't like it when you're feeling like this. I want you to be happy and do what's best for your children. I'm the reason that your home is about to be broken. I can't live with that and plus, I know that you still love him. I saw it in your eyes when he came to get you from my house that day that I called him."

"....I don't know what to say." I said as I grabbed his hand. He pulled his hand away from me.

"Cheryl, stop it. You do know what to say. You do love him, you just won't admit it to yourself. I love you enough to let you go and let you figure it out. We just can't do-.....I can't. Cai matters too much and her heart matters too much. Like you said, she needs you. Go home to her, Ciyle and your husband. I told Tony that I wouldn't let you go without a fight but I need to. Once I knew that Cai was hurting by all of this, I can't go on." He explained to me.

Once I knew how much love and care he had for Cai- I knew that he was right. Shemar cared so much about Cai and how she felt- that he let go the one person, me, that he loved. A man who cared that much about my daughter and how she felt- deserved my respect and friendship. Maybe he was right, I do need to stop. Me still loving Tony? Not so sure about that because at this point- my heart is numb. So numb that I can't even feel it. The only time I feel it is when I'm around Cai and Ciyle. The only two human beings on this planet that even gives me a reason to continue smiling and living. They matter right now and despite my unfaithful ways- maybe loving them will show me what I need to do. Maybe taking it one day, one step, one breath at a time....love will be clearer to me. I guess that it all starts with the small things and praying. Praying about what to do, whom to love and what choices to make. My husband will probably always come out onto but how can I love this man? I've forgotten how to step up towards him and give my all to him once again. His touch won't feel the same because I knew what I've done. The way our eyes lay themselves upon each other won't magically mix together. I'm doing to wrong thing by just staying with him for my children. Like Mommy said, my happiness matters as well. I'll figure this out and I'll figure it out soon. My love for Shemar will never fade but I have to do what's right. Return home to my family and make it all right- for real this time because adultery is not the way to go. I've committed it. A crime on my husbands heart.

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