Falling From The Floor

Welcome Home, Mommy. 🌸

CHERYL's POINT OF VIEW

"Ma, I have so many questions as to why you have an entire baby crib here but...I'm not gonna question it." I said as I picked up Ciyle and gave him a kiss.

"Yeah, don't ask." She said suddenly as she watched me walk around the room with Ciyle.

The room suddenly became silent.

"Cai...thinks that you aren't at home because of something that Tony did. Also, she thinks that you don't wanna come back because of her." Ma said as she sat on the end of the guest bed.

I stopped and slowly turned around to face her.

"She said that?" I asked her as my heart almost went numb.

"Yes, when she came up here with me while you two were talking. Cheryl, I think that what happened last time is going to happen again. You need to talk to that little girl."

"Mama...I am trying but-...." I said but she cut me off.

"No, you're not trying. Instead, you're here and breaking that family of yours apart. You have Cai wondering and asking questions. You of all people don't want her to be confused yet, you're the one causing the confusion."

"Ma, you just don't understand..." I said as I started to change Ciyle's diaper.

"And why do you think that? I completely understand. Sometimes you gotta harden up, and do what you gotta do, Cheryl. You might get confused but never lose sight of your babies and how they are feeling. Now, I'm not saying to stay with the man if you don't love him just because you want the children to be happy. You need to be happy too, not just those babies, Alright? You were doing that in the beginning when you found out that Tony cheated on you- you stayed for the kids. Yes, they need their Father but do what's best for you as well. Never forget that. It might hurt them but all you can do is pray about it and you'll realize that things will suddenly get better. They will adapt and they will understand when you tell them the full story when they get older. As for now, whatever you choose- your happiness matters too." Ma explained.

I took a deep breath.

"I feel like my happiness shouldn't matter when it comes to their happiness. I'm a Mother and when it comes to my babies- I put myself last. I can't help that. I want them to be happy." I said as I could feel my eyes starting to dwell up with tears as I looked down at Ciyle.

"I understand." Ma told me.

THE NEXT DAY

I made my way home. It was the best thing to do. Especially, with Cai hurting from all of this. As I was on my way home, my mind just became blank. I wish that I could do something different but this was was the step that I needed to do next. Go home.

Right when I opened the door, Tony grabbed Ciyle from out of my hands and started to hold him tightly. I could see that he missed him.

"Where's Cai?" I asked as I put my things down and looked at Tony.

"Upstairs." He told me.

"How's she doing?" I asked as I took a deep breath.

"Fine."

"I'll go talk to her." I said as I started to walk away.

"Cheryl, maybe you shouldn't talk to her right now." Tony said as he turned towards me.