My Partner Against Crime

Chapter 44

I watch Spencer barely hold himself together on the couch, and in this situation I have no idea what to do. Marshall is still upstairs, I'm sure able to hear all of the yelling. Eli left, slamming the door behind him and my husband sits with his eyes screwed shut I'm sure debating if he ever wants to see me again.

"Spencer, I'm so sorry. I wanted to tell you, I did, I just couldn't. I didn't plan for this, and honestly I haven't let it all hit me yet. You just have to know I can't afford to lose you." I quickly wipe my frequent falling tears.

"You can't lose me? Then why are you with him?!" He stands and yells at me. In arguments we've yelled at each other, but never like this. This is pain. This is our lost child, our broken relationship, this is the chance of our end.

"I don't know. But I know it's you. I know that, I've known that. It's dumb of me to ever think otherwise, and I'm sorry." He wipes his eyes with the back of his hand and shakes his head.

"You've chosen him over me, I mean you're having a baby with him. But you should know that everything I do is for you, Marina, and I've been waiting around for the time you decide he isn't right for you, and that maybe what we had was pretty great, but at this point I really don't know what to do." He takes a deep breath and heads to the door.

"Spencer wait." Being much shorter than him I have to double my steps to reach him. I grab his arm pulling him to face me.

"I think it could be yours." I watch his hopeless eyes. His lips slightly twitch, fighting back whatever emotion was about to consume him.

"Don't lie to me."

"I'm not, and I think you know it too." I gently slide my arms to his sides.

"I don't know what to say." His hands hold mine.

"You don't have to say anything, just stay. I'll schedule an appointment with my OBGYN and we can go from there, but please, just don't leave." He stares down at me for a moment before hugging me.

"What do we do if it's not mine?" I pull back to look at him.

"I don't know. I don't think Eli wants to be involved if you're around, but we can figure it out. I'm going to go talk to Marshall." Spencer kisses my head and lets me go. I look over at the broken wine bottle, thank God it's white, hell would have broken loose if he had stained my floor.

I take my time going to his room not totally sure what I'm going to say.

I gently knock on his bedroom door before slowly opening it. Marshall sits on his bed, leaning against the headboard layered with pillows.

"Hey, can we talk?" He nods and sits up.

"I heard yelling but I couldn't really hear what he was saying. Are you okay?" My heart melts at his response. I had expected him to be mad at me or upset at the situation.

"Yeah I'm okay. Are you? I'm so sorry your first night here was chaotic. I promise it's not usually like this." I move from the doorway onto his bed, sitting next to him.

"I'm okay, I'm more okay here than I have been in months." I feel happy he's okay with this situation. Of course I want him to be more than okay, but I know that means him being with his family.

"Do you want to come downstairs with me, we can go through the stuff we got? I can get started on your laundry too." We both get up and go downstairs, I carry the Target bags down. Spencer carries two boxes of pizza to the kitchen island.

"Hey, the food just got here." Marshall goes to the kitchen with Spencer and starts eating, I go through his shopping bags and pull out all of the clothes. I start a load of his laundry and clean up the broken wine bottle, and wine.

I spend the rest of the night organizing Marshall's things. I know his first night here is a huge change for all of us, so I just want him to be as comfortable as possible.

I sit in my office creating a list of things I need to do tomorrow. First I need to focus on Marshall before myself, enrolling him in school is definitely something I need to do, although he'll probably hate me until he graduates.

"Hey, you should be sleeping." I roll my head to look at Spencer.

"Couldn't I say the same for you?" He walks over to me and spins my chair to face him.

"You need it more than I do." He pulls my arms, focusing me to stand up.

"C'mon, you're growing a child as we speak, you have to be exhausted." I scoff at his comment, though the thought scared me. There's a baby inside of me, something I wasn't sure would ever happen.

Spencer leads me to my bedroom, and pulls back my blanket helping me get cozy.

"Goodnight." He starts walking out of the room.

"Where are you going? You're not going to sleep with me?" He flips the light switch and comes back over to me.

"I didn't know you wanted me to." I scoot over to the other side, once he lays next to me I get close to him, resting my arm over his stomach.

"Marina, I don't want to ruin the moment, but I want to know what this is." He gently lays a hand on my back, softly rubbing back and forth.

"I don't know... but I want to start new with you. Things have been out of control lately, with Eli, this baby, Marshall, my family, but I know that I want to try again with you."
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"Marina?" I feel a warm hand on my arm, gently shaking me. I roll over to see Marshall, dressed in his new clothes staring down at me. I sit up, and run my hand through my hair hoping to look a little less of a mess.

"Hey. Did Spencer get you breakfast?" He nods.

"Well he tried to, but we ended up going to Moe's." I smiled, happy they were able to spend time together.

"Oh shit, what time is it?" I pull my blanket off and slide out of bed, I unplug my phone from the side table. "Two!? Why didn't you wake me up?" I put my phone back on the table and go into my bathroom to brush my teeth.

"Spencer said to let you sleep, also he wanted me to tell you Anna is here." Usually I would feel rushed to get ready, but Anna is, well Anna. When Spencer was in rehab she was my closest friend, and seeing me stripped of makeup and an actual outfit isn't anything new.

"Tell her I'll be down in a minute." I say with my mouth filled with foamy toothpaste. I quickly finish up brushing my teeth before rinsing and rushing downstairs.

"Hey you!" She tightly squeezes me.

"Hey I thought I'd come over and see what all I missed in the past what, week?" She made a face letting me know to spill.

"Right..." I glance at Spencer cleaning up the kitchen. "Spence." He looks over at me. "Could you and Marshall do a coffee run?" He points to the coffee machine looking confused. I raise my eyebrows hoping he'd catch on.

"Um, okay, are you ready?" He looks at Marshall. I focus my attention back on Anna.

"There's so much I have to tell you." We sit in the living room chatting for a minute while we waited for the guys to leave. The second they go out the door we start.

"Okay I came over to get the rundown and Spencer answers the door with a kid, what the hell did I miss?"