I Temporarily Lived By Your Side.

Chapter 4: Alone.

(Myungsoo)

I woke up quite early, as usual, although I don't have much to do today, I decided to have some quiet time by myself and enjoy my day off.

Oh... wait! I almost forgot that we still have to meet that girl again today. *sigh* But that's the only thing I have on my schedule today so it's not that big of a deal.

I took a quick shower, put on some comfortable clothes and headed to my secret spot. An abandoned park in the middle of nowhere, around 4o minutes drive from here. I'd always go there and sit on a bench by the pond whenever I need to spend some time on my own, compose music, or think. I've been going there for years and I never met a soul out there so I doubt if anyone knows about it or maybe it's just too empty and creepy for people to spend time in, either way, I like going there because I know that there's no way someone would disturb me.

"It's been a while" I mumbled after I finally got there while heading to my spot.

Wait, what? Am I tripping? I thought I saw a silhouette of a person sitting on place on bench, it's weird, I've never seen anyone here for the last 6 years, I came here like countless times before, it's a first.

I quietly walked toward that person... She is a girl. I wonder what is she even doing here all alone? It's 7 in the morning, doesn't she know that such empty places might be dangerous? Nobody's anywhere around here, it's an abandoned place. "She must be fearless," I spoke to myself as I got closer. I froze in my tracks as I saw her face."That ill-mannered girl? The one who came to our company yesterday? I wonder how a foreigner even knows about this place? guess it's about time I stop calling it my secret spot." I whined. I was about to go and talk to her or greet her at least, then I heard her voice talking on the phone, I wasn't so far from her so I accidentally overheard all that she was saying.

<< Anna, you know... life is beautiful, it's so beautiful. I feel so bad for realizing this just now. It's really unfortunate that I just found this place today. It's so peaceful, but I don't think I'll be able to come here again. Um... you wanted to come here to keep me company but you couldn't make it. Now I feel like I should be the one to go there and be with you, mum and dad. I miss them so much., you know. Are you taking good care of them? ... Why ... why did you guys go and leave me all alone in here? I thought you loved me. You were the only persons I had in this world. Mum, dad and you, I've never had any siblings but you were always there so I was thankful, you were my sister. Even after they passed away, you made sure to stay by my side and never leave me alone, but now I'm all alone...

I won't be all alone for so long, I don't want to. I'm going to be with you all so soon.

Ann, I went to the university today, for the first time after that call. Remember how excited you got when I told you that I'm going to give you a tour around my university and let you meet my friends? A tear escaped from my eye as I imagined us giggling on the hallway just like high school days, but I quickly wiped it and got in. I tried to pretend that everything was okay and went directly to see "my friends" but something seemed wrong. They all gave me that cold look, just like I betrayed them or something. I even heard Ye Seul say some mean things about me. I thought she was my closest friend. They all hated the fact that I was offered to be Infinite's songwriter and of course, more rumours were spred. They even told me that I'm not good enough to be doing that, they told me to give up and that they only pretended to be my friends because I'm a pitiful loner. If only you know Anna... I don't want to be famous or work with celebrities. I don't want any of that. I just want to be with mum, dad and you. I wanna go back to the old days when we used to steal a bite from the brownies our mums used to make while they pretend they didn't see us, remember when we'd all burst into laughter when they tell us stories about the naughty kids who steal sweets and how we'd pretend that it had nothing to do with us? I wanna go back to these Christmas nights when we used to eat all kind of delicious food and have sleepovers.

... Let's all meet again and be so happy in our next life. Please tell my parents that I love them so much and I can't wait to see you all again very soon.>>

I didn't know how to feel about what I've just heard. I felt an urge to hug her and let her cry on my shoulder, I kind of understand why she acted the way she did yesterday. She must have gone through a lot of things.

I was so lost in my thoughts trying to figure out whether to comfort her or just ignore what I've just heard since it's none of my business, I have no clue what all of what she said was about but I hope she wouldn't do something stupid.

I decided to just walk away and go back home. I mean, why would I bother interfering with someone's life. I don't even know her and neither does she.

I was stunned when I heard the sound of something that has fallen in the water. I turned back to see no trace of her. I quickly ran to the pond to see her already floating on the top of the water. I immediately jumped to save her, she was unconscious and she wouldn't wake up no matter how much I tried to wake her up, she hasn't even been underwater for that long. I was shocked when I saw a huge empty bottle of some strong sleeping pills laying around by her bag. " WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU JUST DONE???" I yelled in frustration.

I instantly carried to the car her looking for the nearest hospital. After waiting for 20 minutes, the doctor assured me that she's going to be fine after getting some rest, and he told me that things could have been worse if I brought her here a bit later. I heaved a sigh of relief then noticed that I'm still carrying her backpack. I searched for her phone so I can call her relatives or someone she knows. She only has two contacts on her phone. Professor Park and Anna. I sent them both a message to come and get her out of here then left the hospital.

I cannot stand being here, the smell, seeing people hurting, seeing people crying due to the loss of their loved ones. Hospitals are the worst places on earth.

(Seol ah)

I woke up to the pungent smell of hospital disinfectant, invading my nostrils. I slowly opened my eyes trying to recall what had happened. Why am I here? I shut my eyes once again, trying to assemble all the pieces in my memory to solve the puzzle I'm lost in.

"You're not even good at dying" I spoke to me with frustration, I took my backpack that was next to my pillow and got out of the hospital's room. On the hallway, I saw professor Park running towards me. "Was he the one who saved me? How did he know I was there? "

" What happened? Are you okay? I got here as soon as I saw the message!" He said with a concerned voice.

"The message? What message?" I thought

"I'm fine, I just felt dizzy. I haven't been getting much sleep lately." I lied

He didn't seem to believe me but I just kept acting like everything was fine, I didn't want him to get that involved in my messy life.

(Professor Park)

As soon as I got out of the elevator, I ran toward Seol ah who looked so pale, yet she kept pretending that she was just dizzy and that everything was fine. She's a bad liar. I've been her teacher for 2 years, and as a teacher who cares about his students and knows them pretty well, I could tell that she was lying. I didn't wanna put more pressure on her and ask her what happened so I just changed the topic.

"You don't have to go to the company today. I'll just tell them you're not feeling well, so just go home and take some rest." I said.

(...silence)

She squeaked out after a long thought " I will go."

"You don't have to," I assured her.

"But I want to." She said and gave me a half-smile.

She has always been like that. We never know what she's up to.

(Myungsoo)

I went back to that place thinking about everything that has just happened trying to understand the whole situation.

I don't know what she's been through exactly but I hope she doesn't do that again.

When I got closer to that bench, my ees caught a black notebook with the name "Eun Seol ah" on the top of it, as I picked it up, a piece of paper fell on the floor.

.... I hesitated before picking it up

"Is that what I think it is? ..."