Hot Mello (Book 1)

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I wore the rosary that he gave me, hidden under my shirt. I needed strength for this. I still wanted him back, but I didn't want him to hurt me anymore.

I arrived at the bar before him and ordered a vodka and diet coke. I knew drinking might get me more emotional but fuck it, I wasn't getting through this without it. I considered buying him a drink for a second before dismissing the idea. It was force of habit, but he could buy his own damn drink.

I found a seat and was taking a sip of my drink when I looked up and saw that he'd arrived. He stood beside the door holding a bar of chocolate. He was about bite it when he saw me and stared at me instead. It was one of his intense and hot as fuck stares. I felt weak already.

He walked over, his eyes staring straight into mine. I couldn't look away, he was breathtaking.

"Thank you for coming." He said. I nodded for him to sit. "Y/N, I'm sorry I was such a bad boyfriend. I like you, it's just easier for me to focus on a case with facts. Feelings and emotions are too scary. You deserved better."

"Well, I'm sorry for sleeping with your friend."

There was an awkward silence, until I broke it.

"You didn't get a drink."

"I don't need one. Have you been ok?"

"Kind of. I haven't been up to much. I made a new friend so I just meet up with him everyday."

"Oh..." He looked crushed.

"He's just being a friend to me, that's all. Nothing more."

He still looked hurt. "What's he like then?"

"He's nice. His name is Raito and he's a student at To-Oh University."

"Raito?" He had his thinking face on. "Raito, that means..." He took out his phone and looked back up at me a moment later. "As I thought, it means Light."

I shrugged. "And?"

"What does he look like?" He asked.

I decribed him and he checked his phone again, then showed me the screen.

"Is that him?" I looked and nodded.

"Wow. Ok Y/N, I need to talk to you somewhere private. Please trust me, I won't try anything, I promise. This is important."

The worry in his eyes startled me, I could tell he was trying not to freak out. I nodded so we left and hurried to his apartment.

"Raito is Light Yagami. He is the number one suspect in the Kira case."

"Oh my God..."

He let it sink in before asking if Light ever hurt or tried to hurt me, I assured him that he hadn't and he sighed in relief.

"But Mello, he was always asking questions about you. I thought it was suspicious, now it makes sense."

"Did you tell him anything?"

"Only a bit about the break up. I never told him anything that could identify or locate you. He even offered to beat you up or whatever for me. What a snake, using my heartache to try to find you."

"Why didn't you just let him beat me up? I probably deserved it."

"I'd never let anyone hurt you." I said softly.

"Even after the way I treated you?"

"I still love you, Mello. Nothing can change that."

His eyes filled with tears. "You're the only one who's ever really cared about me. I'm sure even Matt just put up with me."

"I doubt that."

"I know have anger issues but people always think that means I don't feel hurt sometimes too."

"Of course you do." I ran my hand through his hair. "Hey, I could use Raito to get information for you now."

"No! I won't let you do that, he's dangerous. I'll fix this, I'll get rid of him. And I'll try to fix us if you'll let me."

"Of course." I smiled at him.

He pulled me into a huge hug. "I love you too."