Hot Mello (Book 1)

Mission (3)

A week later, Mello received a phone call which he took in private. He came back with a new plan. He explained it to me, how Matt would create a diversion so Mello could kidnap Kira's spokesperson.

"I don't know, Mello." I sighed.

"It can't go wrong, there's no bombs involved this time. It's not like the church I'm bringing to her can randomly go on fire or something."

I had a bad feeling about it though, worse than when he told me about his last plan.

"It's going to be over soon, Kira will be caught and justice will be done."

I knew I couldn't stop him, I couldn't find any reason I could voice other than my intuition but he didn't listen in that kind of thing, unless it was his own.

"I have to go now. I'll be back soon."

I walked him to the door, he held me and kissed me before leaving.

"Mello, I love you." I called after him.

He looked back, smiling.

"Yeah I know. I love you too."

He waved and disappeared in a flash of blonde and leather. I sat on the couch and switched the tv on to wait for news. I didn't bother trying to do anything else, I just sat there numbly, crouched over with my knees pulled into my chest. I hadn't bitten my nails since I was a child but I chewed on my thumbnail anxiously. My eyes got heavy and started to close when I was jolted back awake.

"With regards to the man who was shot dead, his identity is still unknown."

I looked at the tv and saw a familiar red car.

"Matt..." I put my head on my knees and cried for Mello's best friend, who had been like a brother in law to me.

I cried my eyes out until my tears were frozen over by the words I heard.

"The church Tiyomi Takada was taken to has gone up in flames!"

I raised my head slowly and stared at the screen, which showed the church Mello that had told me about. My heart stopped beating and I thought "This is it, Kira got me." but then it started beating again, though I wished it hadn't.

I watched the church burning down, with my lover inside. My world came crashing down and I'd never felt so lost and alone. I wanted to call someone but the only two people I knew were dead now. I couldn't exactly call a helpline, what would I say? "My boyfriend kidnapped Kiyomi Takada and now he's dead."

I stood up and walked to our bedroom to find his gun and put myself out of my misery. I opened his gun drawer and it was empty. Of course he'd taken it with him. As I closed it again, I noticed a small note in there. I took it out and read his writing.

As if I'd let you kill yourself. I love you baby - M

He'd planned this further ahead than I thought. I lay on our bed and curled up, sobbing. I was totally alone in the world again and I had no idea how I was meant to carry on without my Mello.

[Carry on...triggers all the mcr fans]

[AN - Guys I don't think I want to write anymore, I don't want to do anything anymore. I know I'll write again, I've already got more ideas for Death Note Misfits, but even writing just seems pointless right now.]

I just don't want to be here anymore, I'm sorry. I don't want to feel anymore, it all hurts too much.