Hot Mello (Book 1)

The Morning After

I woke up and smiled as memories of the previous night flooded my mind. I opened my eyes so I could see the man of my dreams, who was finally my dream come true. He wasn't beside me, I was facing the wall so I turned over and saw him by the door putting his leather pants on. His back was to me, his shirt still off.

"Mello, what are you doing?" I asked, still sleepy.

"I have to go." He replied.

I sat up. "What, why? You don't have work today."

"I can't do this, I can't be with you." He said, breaking my heart into 666 million pieces.

"That's bullshit. You said you love me."

"I do, but I just can't."

I jumped out of the bed and went over to him.

"Mello, why? Last night was amazing, I thought we had something special." I was close to tears and he looked so guilty.

"We do, but..." He ran his hands through my hair and kissed it. "If we're together I'll think about you too much."

"You should think about me."

"No." He wrapped his arms around me. "Then I won't think about the Kira case enough. I'll be weaker and I won't beat Near."

"Why does it matter so much to you? It shouldn't matter who solves it as long as the killing stops."

"It matters because I need to be number one." He explained.

"Number one to who?" I asked.

"I don't know, I just need to be number one." He repeated.

"You're already number one to me."

He looked at me and he seemed so vulnerable.

"Really?" He whispered it, as though he was scared of the answer. I took his hand and squeezed it tight.

"Of course. I love you. Don't you think you could be stronger if we were together? You'd have my strength as well as yours."

He looked away, but not before I saw his tears fall.

"Don't look at me, my face is too horrible."

"No, you're too handsome."

"But this..." He gestured at the scarred side of his face.

"It makes you look badass, which matches your personality. I want you to be my badass boyfriend."

He smiled, blushing sightly.

"You make me soft." He said.

"Well jeez, sorry I turn you off."

"No no, oh my God, I meant in my heart." He blushed even harder and I laughed.

"You're amazing, I love you so much." I felt myself blushing now but it made him smile again.

"I want to be your badass boyfriend too. But you know I'll still need to spend time on the Kira case."

"Of course, and I'll be by your side helping you with that, but I can be there for you in other ways too."

"You mean in bed?" He smiled, his eyes lighting up.

"I meant emotionally but that too." I laughed as he pulled me back into his arms.

"I love you, Y/N."

"Then take your pants back off and come back to bed. Oh, and if you ever try to leave me again, I'll punch your lights out."