I Don't Want to Fall in Love</3

Chappie 43.2: A Better Goodbye.

--->MAI<---
As much as I didn’t want to go to school and kahit na si Alice na mismo nagsabi na magstay na lang muna ako sa bahay, pumasok parin ako. Coz if I keep myself holed up at home, I don’t think I’d feel any better, so I decided to just go to school, since I seriously needed the distraction.

Lunch time na and I was with everyone, minus Gino. Kanina ko pa kasing tinatarayan, mukhang nabadtrip na rin kaya tumigil na siya sa pagbuntot sakin. So ayun nga, there I was, acting like nothing’s wrong, eating my lunch and laughing at Josh and Rick’s corny jokes nung biglang sumulpot si Leslie at Desiree.

“Ano kayang feeling ng iiwanan?!’ Leslie mused as she stopped at our table. Natigilan naman sina Rick, curious as to what she has to say. Ako naman, dedma lang. Sa sinabi niyang yun, alam ko na agad na tintukoy niya ako and ang pagbalik ni Tom sa LA.
“Ano na naman bang sinasabi niyo?” Tanong ni Nathalie.
“Ayan kasi Nat, sumali ka lang sa loser circle, late ka na sa juicy gossip. Si Tom Scott, tapos na yung exchange program ng Abbey Mount kaya babalik na siya sa LA.” Sagot ni Leslie.
“Kasi naman Mai, did you seriously think he’ll stay for you? Tsk. Tsk. Sa susunod kasi, wag kang masyadong feeling.” Sabi naman ni Desiree. Sinabi na yung pangalan ko since di ko sila pinapansin.
“Did you actually think he was serious when he ‘courted’ you? For all we know, pampalipas oras ka lang niya or maybe PANAKIP BUTAS ka lang, kasi habang nagmumukmok ka sa bahay niyo last Saturday, kasama niya si Chanelly on a date. How I pity you. Kawawa ka naman, konting araw na lang siguro pagsasawaan ka na rin ni Gino.” dagdag pa ni Leslie, tapos like the little witches they were trying to be, they cackled as they walked away. 

So syempre, all eyes were on me, pati narin yung ibang students sa canteen, sa lakas ba naman kasi ng boses nung dalawa sinong hindi makakarinig.
“Mai, totoo ba yun?” tanong sakin ni Aria. Tumango lang ako.
“That stupid bastard! Akala ko ba nililigawan ka niya? Bakit kasama niya si Chachoy nung Saturday?” inis na tanong ni Rick.
“Okay ka lang ba?” Tanong naman sakin ni Jacob.
“What’d he tell you?” si Nat. 

I sighed, syempre inanticipate ko ng mangyayari to, kaya handa na yung speech ko. Yung pretend convo ko kay Tom. Just so I wouldn’t look like the pitiful loser. I told them we talked about it the last time he came here, that we parted on good terms, he also told me he’ll be seeing Chanelly to talk to her, to say goodbye or something. Mukha namang naniwala sila but the annoying part is, imbis na madistract ako, mas lalo kong naaalala yung sinabi ni Tom coz they kept asking me questions, kept assuring me it’ll be fine and that there’s other fishes in the sea. Si Rick naman, kanina pang pinapaulit ulit na sabihin ko lang daw, babasagin daw niya yung mukha ni Tom, hindi ko alam pero parang galit na galit siya, mas galit pa nga siya kay Josh kung tutuusin e.
 

--->NICK<---
Nasa kusina kami ni Mai, ako nagluluto, sya nakaupo lang. Naghihiwa sya kanina ng patatas kaso bilang distracted, muntikan ng putulin sariling daliri kaya bago pa mangyari yun, pinaupo ko na lang muna siya. Napatingin ako sa kanya, kanina pa siyang patingin tingin sa relo niya, pakuya-kuyakoy. Binaling ko na ulit yung atensyon ko sa pagluluto. Mamaya ako naman mahiwa dito, but then she started tapping her foot, hindi ko pinapansin nung una but as time passes mas lalong nalakas yung pagtap niya and its starting to annoy me.

“Jeez! That’s it.” I said as I walked over to her, mukha naman siyang nagulat as she stopped and looked at me.
“Come on, just tell me what’s wrong.”
“Ano?”
“I know you’re bothered and I know you’re just itching to tell me about it, so just out with it already. Distractions and distractees arent allowed in a kitchen.” Sabi ko sa kanya.
“What makes you think I’d want to tell you anything?”
“Alam naman nating dalawa na illegal psychiatrist mo ko. Well?”
“Feeling ka, hindi ka psychiatrist, hindi ako sira ulo no.”
“Yeah, whatever. Sasabihin mo ba o hindi?” Syempre sinabi niya, edited version nga lang kasi syempre hindi ko pwedeng malaman yung buong katotohanan.
“So mister psyciatrist? What do I do?”
“Simple, go. Now.”
“Gago ka ba? Hindi ka ba nakinig sa sinabi ko? Ayoko siyang makita. Pupunta punta siya dito tas mang-iiwan lang din pala sya. Bahala siya sa buhay niya.”
“Paulit-ulit lang ba talaga lagi? I told you before and ikaw narin nagconfirm, he did came back for you, to meet you, to apologise, to make things better, and what’s with you anyway? Bakit ba siya na lang lagi mong sinisisi? Are you sure you didn’t do anything?”
“I did, but that’s not the point, sinaktan parin niya ko!”
“He did, but its normal. Sa lahat naman ng relasyon hindi nawawala yung magkakasakitan kayo e.”
“Hindi ko kaya.” I sighed and made her look me in the eye.