My Fate, Your Fate...OUR FATE

Chapter Thirty Two

Chapter Thirty Two: “I can’t believe this!”

Klarrize Buentaje's Point of View

"Love hurts", Ilang beses ko na bang narinig 'yan noon? Before I wonder why and how come that someone put an adjective like that beside the word love. Para sa akin kasi noon, love is happiness. Love makes us. Love is what we all need... But recently, I found out why they had put the word 'hurt' beside this wonderful word "love". It is because it literally, emotionally and mentally hurts.

I realize that love isn't all about us being happy. That love cannot just make us but it can also break us. Love is all we need but sometimes continiously loving that one person who hurts you is just plain stupidity. Ilang beses na ba akong nasaktan ng dahil sa kanya? Parang hindi ko na yata mabilang. Una iyong pag-ignore niya sa akin while we are still in a relationship. I didn't understand it then. But after the scene on that very special day, I did understand.

I did understand that I am just nothing to him now. That he is now in love with someone else. That he really fall out of love. I can still remember that one night that I desperately wanna see him. I called him in the middle of the night. He didn't pick up the first two calls but it gave me a hope when I thought he answered my call. Kaya lang nagmukha lang akong tanga after that. It left my mouth open when I heard Naiome answered the call.

"Stop calling my Vance, you annoying plain bitch! Can't you understand the he doesn't love you now? That he fall out of love because you're too plain for a gorgeously looking guy like him? You don’t suit him so you might as well go to hell. He's mine!" tuloy-tuloy niyang sabi at saka pinutol ang tawag.

He made my days into nights. Crying every second of those days that I wasn't present at school was hell. Di ko alam kung paano patitigilin yung mga luhang patuloy lang sa pag-agos. Hindi ko alam paano ulit bubuuin yung sarili ko, because honestly, never did I imagine that this could happen to me… to us.

"Klarrize, are you really okay?" narinig kong tanong ni Shayne. Kasalukuyan kaming nandito sa likod ng school. Malapit sa abandoned library kung saan kami nahulog sa manhole. Tumango lang ako bilang sagot at saka inihilig ang ulo ko sa balikat ni Shayne.

"Cry if you want. No need to stop yourself from doing so, Klarrize." dagdag niya at instantly ay bumagsak ang mga luhang pinipigilan ko kanina pa.

"Why is he acting like that?? Bakit ba hindi na lang niya gawin ulit yung pag-ignore na ginagawa niya sa akin dati??" naiinis kong wika. "Why is he giving me false hopes???" dagdag ko pa.

"Ssshh.." patahan sa akin ni Shayne.

"Ang sakit-sakit. Didn't he broke up with me?? Then why is he acting like a boyfriend to me now? Bigla na lang siyang susulpot sa tuwing pakiramdam ko nakaka-move on na ako sa kanya. Darating na lang siyang bigla at ipapa-realize sa akin na siya pa rin ang laman nito." sabi ko sabay turo ko sa dibdib ko.

Umiyak ako ng umiyak ng sandaling iyon. Inilabas ko lahat ng luha at hinanakit na meron ako sa pamamagitan ng pag-iyak hanggang sa kusa na lang akong mapagod. Ni hindi ko namalayang nakatulog pala ako dahil pagmulat ng mga mata ko, isang matamis na ngiti ni Shayne ang bumungad sa'kin.

"Are you okay now?" tanong niya wearing that sweet smile. Tumango ako bilang sagot sa kanya at saka bumangon sa pagkakahiga.