What If

Twenty Five

"Fixed yourself first, ate. Para kang hindi naligo..." Kantyaw ni Trevor nang makatayo ako galing sa pagkakahiga.

"Naligo ako. I just cried a lot because of what happened kaya namamaga ang mukha ko,"

Tiniklop ko nang hugis parisukat ang aking kumot at inayos ko ang magulong unan. My white bed is very untidy. I need to have extra time to change this all. I don't want to remember anything.

I showered and clean my body. I used my favorite feminine wash. Sa banyo ay naalala ko na naman ang lahat. I opened the shower again to cover my stupid tears. I just can't help but to show my anger and pain.

I wear a simple pink shirt and pants. I'm fresh. Mas maayos kaysa sa kanina. Mas maganda ang pakiramam ko. Kahit pa hindi nito naalis ang sakit na nararamdaman ko, it suddenly made me feel relaxed and calm.

"Your phone...kanina pa may tumatawag," ani Trevor. "Una na ako sa baba. Sumunod ka na lang sa baba, ate."

Tumango ako. Nang marinig ko pagsarado ng pinto, I checked my phone. There's a 10 missed calls from Tyron. There are some unread messages from him, too.

I called him. It only took seconds for him to answer...

"Hello, darling..." His sweet voice filled my ears.

"Tyron. Where are 'you?"

"Apartment. Why? Do you feel bored? Pupunta ako riyan..." Aniya.

I fucking forget what will I do. My dinner nga pala kami ni Trevor. Kinailangan ko nang ibaba ngunit hindi ko magawa. I love his voice on phone.

"No need. I'm with Trevor right now. Please rest, I know you're tired. I will just have my dinner."

"I'll wait for you, then."

"No. You can sleep now. Let's talk tomorrow if we both have enough time, okay?" I assured him.

I heard his sigh. Alright, Tyron. Let's just go with the flow. Kung ano man ang mangyari sa huli ay wala dapat akong pagsisihan. Wala dapat kaming pagsisihan dahil pareho namin itong ginusto. Ginusto naming sumugal at handa kaming tumanggap ng pagkatalo kung sakali man.

"I will end the call, Tyron." Nanginginig kong sinabi.

"Alright, baby..."

I pressed the red button. Damn! My heart is beating loudly. I looked at my phone at nasa screen ang minuto kung gaano katagal kaming nag-usap. Calling and texting is fine but being with him is better.

Bumaba ako at sinalubong agad ako ng mayordoma ng resort. Maybe dad hired her. Trevor is sitting while his attention is on his phone. Sino na naman ang katext ng isang 'to?

"Oh, you're here..." Deklara niya.

Hindi ko iyon pinansin. Binalingan ko ang inihaw na bangus na nasa aming hapag. Mainit pa ito at nanunuot ang balat. Natakam ako bigla. Sinalinan ni Trevor ang kaniyang baso ng iced tea. Kumuha naman ako ng umuusok na kanin sa aking tabi.

We eat silently. Hanggang sa naisipan niyang magsalita...

"I like Kuya Tyron for you, ate..."

Halos mabilaukan ako sa sinabi niya. First, I heard Tyron's name. Second, I'm not ready to talk about this again. Grr, Trev!

"Hindi siya gusto ng ating ama, Trevor. It doesn't matter if you like him for me. Walang makakapagpa bago ng desisyon ni daddy."

He drink his vodka beside him. "So, you are saying that you will agree with the fixed marriage? Unbelievable."