Now for the boys Jamal is like a brother to me, one I never had. He’s been friends with me since before high school and I love him. I secretly thinks he had a crush on me but when he slept with April one night at a party I lost all of those sorts of feelings for him. So as you can tell I liked him too. He’s a little shy at times and keeps to myself most of the time. Can he boisterous at times, but normally he likes to sit back and watch. He’s tall with light brown hair which he flicks to the side as it’s always falling into his face, I find it cute and when he smiles it’s infectious and yes I had a crush on him for years but never tried anything. Sometimes I now wish I had because I think we would have been perfect for each other. So yeah I get his a boy and I realise he has needs too but really to do it with one of our friends at a drunken party? He says it was one of the biggest mistakes his ever made but he can’t take it back now can he? But I still love him but we just haven’t been that close since I found out. We still hang and talk after school and send each other texts but it’s not the same. If I had to choose which guy from our friends to have been with he was it and April knew it. I believe that she was jealous and this was the only way she could hurt me without making it look like it was deliberate. I know he’s sorry I see it every time he looks at April especially when she brings it up, he gets very defensive and I don’t blame him because April is as conniving as they come but he did what he did and there is nothing he can do to take that back. Since the April incident Jamal knew I was heartbroken so he acted differently towards me and got himself a new girlfriend. Maybe to try and forget about the whole April thing or maybe it was because of me? Either way I still talk to him and respect him and wish things could have been different. The only thing annoying about the whole thing was he never came to talk to me, we used to talk about everything. Anything private we trusted in each other but after that it disappeared and I can’t help but feel like I miss it.
Let’s talk now about Felix man I love this guy, he can make anyone laugh. He has a funny and bright personality which helps to bring our little group together. He hasn’t had a tragic life or something major go wrong he’s just well Felix. Felix is tall like the others with blonde hair, it’s always short around the sides but he has a fringe. It suits him and if you ask me, he’s dating material but he doesn’t really date more of a one night stand sort of guy. I guess he’s just waiting for the right kind of girl? We call him Felix the cat we call him, he’s a man whore at times and he doesn’t care about what anyone else thinks and I think that’s its bold of him. Yes, he was slept with Lily and April on numerous occasions and won’t deny it either. Plus he’ll happily tell us about any other girl he’s slept with and what they did and how it all came about. The boys think Felix is their hero and sometimes the stories revolt me but like he says don’t judge and if you don’t want to hear about it – don’t! I will normally zone out about his sexual stories he tells as they don’t interest me but April and Lily are the firs to be there asking questions. I fell like if you’ve shared something with another person that it should be private. The whole world doesn’t need to know every detail of your private life. I do love Felix he does help keep us as a whole and he’s a great listener and loves to help each and every one of us out. The boys really look up to him for advice and he’s always happy to help. Oh by the way, Felix came to us in the beginning of high school. He was a transfer, anyone would think he’d end up with the populars but he was too down to earth and they didn’t take to him but Jamal invited over to lunch one day and he never left. I love Felix, he’s one of my best friends.
