We spent the hour cuddling up on his couch watching some TV show when I couldn't help but think that now I know why girls get so clingy with their men. The things they do in private, is well private and knowing that he's looking elsewhere for it hurts. Like your not good enough for them but why do they always come back even when they've cheated. Is it that they just haven't gotten enough that they need multiple people to do it for them, which by the way is pretty darn sick if you ask me. What you do as a couple should remain between the 2 of you. I don' t know how April and Lily can blurt out their privates business for all to hear. Maybe they don't respect themselves enough to shut their mouths which in my opinion is wrong, just wrong. i hope that what went down today never is spoken off again unless of course it's between us. i think I'd die knowing that Jamal bragged about it and then it makes you wonder what the guys tell there friends on how it went down, if she liked it - of course she liked he was doing it to here. Duh! But seriously why do people brag about their personal business. Its for no one else's ears really, is it?! Jamal and i head back to my house and wait for Emily. I let us in first and leave my bag in my room. I ask Jamal to wait as I don't want a repeat of today in my room because if left alone right now I think I'd force him to go all the way. My body is still shivering from the experience it got today and the smile just can't be wiped from my face at the moment which Jamal thinks is cute. I don't, I think it's going to give us away but he said he'll hang around as long as possible to throw my dad off and as for the school not ringing he already got Felix to use his charm on the office lady to mark us there for the day so no questions asked. I look up at Jamal as we sat on my steps waiting for Emily to get home. He sat above me while I was in between his legs holding onto them with my hands, he was nibbling on my ear giving me goose bumps when Emil's bus drove up. I got up and made Jamal wait for me on the step. He pouted his lips which was cute. I wanted so badly to run up into his arms and kiss him but Emily was here and she hated or PDA!
Frank waved and said goodbye as she got off. We walked up to the house as Jamal sat there waiting for me and without any words being said Emily says "What did you 2 get up too today?" I look at Jamal who looks at me and I close my eyes.
I knew it! I knew someone would pick up the sense that something sexual had happened between us. I was a virgin loser who couldn't hide the fact that my boyfriend preformed sexual acts on me and I enjoyed it now I had to have it radiant off me so everyone could tell! Jamal looks at me and gets up wrapping his arm around me and kissing my neck and says "We're just in love Em. One day you'll be in love and you'll look just like us!" I giggle as he blows a raspberry on my neck and Emily rolls her eyes and storms off but not without saying
"Yeah well if I'm going to look like either of you, then I never want to fall in love. Morons!"
"EMILY WATERS LANGUAGE!"
"English dear sister!" she screams out before running into the house.
I go to get her but Jamal holds me back "Let her go. At least she didn't say anything else" he was right at least she hadn't but what happens when Jamal's gone. She won't hold back and i don't know if I'll be able to stay straight faced in front of Helen, Em and Dad. Oh god help me please! Jamal and I stay outside, arm in arm just talking when he whispers "So you enjoyed today?" I go bright red and my face feels like its burning off. Jamal looks at me and laughs "I take that as a yes?"
"Why are you asking?" I whisper and he gets in close and says
"Because I was wondering if you'd do it again? like soon?"
"Maybe but not on a school day!"
"Yeah well it wasn't really planned it just happened to go that way BUT i don't regret one minute or any bit of it! I love you Brooklyn Waters!" I look into his eyes softly
