As our bodies moved together, my breathing was hitched I knew all too well that if we didn’t stop this would go too far and I wasn’t ready to do it and especially not on a school oval like some whore. I shifted a little and Jamal groaned “Where you going?” he whispered in my ear and I giggled a little
“We can’t keep doing this Ja. It’s not right, not in the middle of our school oval!” he groans again as we stop and he looks into my eyes
“I want you so much!” he huffs in quick breaths.
I don’t know how to respond. I want him too but I didn’t know if I was ready – was I ready? I mean all this has been leading up to something right? But was I willing to make the move and go that far? I looked at Jamal as he shifted due to the hardness in his pants and I looked around us and the answer was – No! I’m not although it’s been an experience and a half to get this far I don’t think I’m ready for it just yet. I climb off and Jamal shifts move and tried to hide from me as I straighten myself up. “I’m sorry Ja but not like this, not here” I whisper and he turns to look at me.
Cupping my face in his hand he says “I understand and I’m sorry if I pushed you too far. I just can’t get you out of my head and my body is screaming to have you. It’s hard to hold back!” I kiss his lips and look into his eyes
“Ja you’re more experienced at this than me and I feel like we’re rushing into it because…..” I look at him
“Because you’ve done this before” there I said it and he groans knowing what I meant
“I’m sorry Brook. Really I am, since April I’ve had a few girls here and there but I’ve always had something for you. It’s hard to explain…” he trails off and I just look at him
“How many girls?” I ask shocked that he’s been with more than 2 girls that I know of
“A few” he says shyly
“Seriously?” I move away and he looks at me and grabs my arm
“But they don’t mean anything to me. None of them have. It’s you I’ve had my heart on, the rest were just ….. I don’t know…mistakes!” I wasn’t hearing this right now.
The guy I thought was nice, caring and shy is turning out to be a man whore and I didn’t like that. I stood up and grabbed my things and started to walk away. How could he make so many mistakes, it’s not like he can trip and fall on a naked girl that many times right!
I had to rethink this whole relationship. Jamal just wasn’t who I thought he was. I knew he’d had sex before but with only a few girls but not more than that!? Should I be grateful that he has or should I be offended that he’s gotten around just like most guys our age? I could hear him calling my name from behind but I couldn’t stop I was in shock and hurt. As I reached the school so did Jamal with me. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back to look at him “Brook, please. You know I’ve had girlfriends and some of them led me to the bedroom. I was stupid and inexperienced I shouldn’t have but I swear to you I’ve only been with 5 girls including April…” he stopped as he looked into my teary eyes “I’m sorry if you thought I hadn’t and that April was basically my first and only.
I know that when we make love it won’t be the same as you but really it can be if you want it to be. Everyone is different and I know if we do I’ll make sure its romantic and special like you’ve always wanted it to be and I’ll be my first time with you. It’ll be so special that you’ll forget I’ve had sex before really. I’ll go slow and do want ever I need to make it comfortable for you but I’m not going to lie – it hurts at first” I look at him “How many virgins have you had?” it was blunt but to the point and he rubbed the back of his head from being nervous “1 or 2 but…..” I walk away “Brook wait. It’s not a contest you know. I liked them enough to go that far, they wanted me too and I’ve never forced anyone to do want they don’t want. I promise, I won’t force you. I’ll wait till you’re ready..” I stop and think about it.
