"Brook. Look I'm sorry. It's just when you're with Jasper you always look like you're having more fun than we do. You're always smiling and laughing with me. It's like his closer to you than me..." i walk up and grab both his hands in mine and look into his eyes and say
"But I'm with you. It's you I think about every second of the day, it's you I want to hug and kiss when we can, it's you that comes around and looks after me and my family when we're sick, it's you that I've always loved..." the work just slipped out and at that moment I realised I couldn't take it back, even though I wasn't ready to say the love word. It was too late now, I'd said it and he'd realised and without warning he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me but not like all the other times.
Oh no this time it had so much love and tenderness that it made me weak at the knees. I gripped his shirt tightly in my hands and held myself up as he took me on an emotional ride to heaven and back with his lips. Oh if only I could explain how i felt right at that moment you too would be on the floor unable to stand. His strong arms held me to him and he sensually showed me how he truly felt for me and it was all in a kiss! Who would have thought that it was actually true, that one kiss could not only show you but make you understand how someone truly felt without words and all i have is one word - magical. It was magical and I couldn't care if my sister watched or even my dad because right now Jamal had taken me up and beyond a place I'd been to before and I wasn't ready to come crashing back down to earth.
Our kiss lasted forever and a day before we both were struggling to breath. As his lips left mine all I wanted was for him to be right back on them. I wanted him i more ways than one and it's hard to believe but if I didn't have a care in the world about anything. I would have let him take me back to my room and take what I have left that is whole, without any regrets. I wouldn't have cared if he dumped me tomorrow or an hour later. I didn't care if we fought until the sky turned red. At that moment nothing seemed to happen but us - him - we as a couple and as a couple I think we stepped over another line and more deeper into something neither one of us was ready to try but nothing could stop what we'd started. I was gasping for breath as Emily came down unaware of what had just happened in this very room only minutes before "Hey Brook, Can you dry my hair please?" I look at Jamal's eyes and they were soft and caring, nothing like what they were before and I softly replied with "Sure, I'll be there in a minute" I hear her feet run up the stairs but my eyes stay in that one spot as I wait for either me or him to talk
"Brook.." he whispered and I knew what he wanted to say but couldn't find those words, the right ones anyway. i nodded and he smiled "I'm sorry"
"Me too" we hugged and I let a stray tear roll down my cheeks.
I was happy right at this moment and nothing could take that away. "Go help your sister. I'll stir dinner!" Dinner!
I'd totally forgotten it was on, it must have slipped my mind while all this drama was happening. After Em was done and I'd made her hair nice and dry. She got dressed and I went downstairs to find my dad, Helen and Jamal talking in the kitchen. I was a little taken back that Helen was here. A heads up would have been nice.
It turns out that Dad had invited Helen over for dinner and forgotten to tell me. I wasn't really mad or annoyed because every time I looked at Jamal everything in my body yearned for him. It was so powerful that I think he felt the same thing. Our bodies were one and calling each other without words so when everyone wasn't looking we tiptoed outside to the back yard. We lay on the trampoline in each other’s arms just looking up at the sky "Brook.." Jamal started saying
"Do you really love me?" i was a little taken back because I didn't know how to answer him truthfully.
Yeah I'd blurted it out earlier but had I meant it? I just didn't know "I don't know why?"
