I was with Jamal and he wanted to try and make us work this time. He really did and the way he looked at me and the way he wanted me to see a future with him made me start to cry “Shhh” he said he pulled me into his embrace.
I didn’t know where Jasper had gone but it was like everybody had disappeared in our lives and it was just the two of us. Our lips found each other and they were so soft that I melted into them. He held onto me closely as we both melted into the kiss and became one. Maybe things between us were more serious than I’d thought. I was confused and mixed up in all these emotions, these feeling I was getting. They were mixed up and roaming around in my head “I think we should stay here today. You’re not right to go to school?” I look into Jamal’s eyes and nod. He lays me down on the bed and I hear the boys talking “B. Jamal’s just giving me a lift to school but I’ll be back this afternoon and if you need me call okay?” his soft touch on my shoulder gave me goose bumps and I smiled while nodding.
Jasper was so sweet and caring and there was no nonsense with him. He told it how it was and I liked that about him. Jasper was a great friend and I was glad he was there for me this morning. I needed to say thank you. I jump up to my feet and run to the front door but it was too late. I watched as they drove off down the street. Should I be worried? Jamal is jealous of Jasper already and seeing us the way we were this morning. I’m sure ticked him off? I’d explain it to him and I’m sure he’d understand? I walk in and call my dad and school to tell them I’m not going to school and I go back to bed and relax. Dad asked if I was going too alright and I told him yes. I didn’t go into why the panic attack but I said we’d talk later and he was cool with it. I lay back down and fall asleep.
I wake when I feel hands on me. I open my eyes to see Jamal running his fingers up my arm, giving me goose bumps “Hey” I say sleepily “Hey” he replied. Giving me a soft kiss on the lips “How you feeling?”
“Better! You know Jasper was only trying to help?” I say and he presses his index finger on my lips
“I know. He explained the whole thing to me” Jamal slowly climbs on the bed and over me, basically straddling me in the process and I look up at him
“I’m here now to look after you” he leans down and cups my face in his hands kissing me sensually.
After a while he starts to gently but slowly rub against me and although I know what he’s doing I don’t stop him. I actually want him too. His hands wrap around my head and pull me towards him deepening our kiss and my hands grip onto his back and pull him closer to me. The rubbing more continuous and harder against me. I can feel him against my leg and for some weird reason all of my senses are running wild. I run my hands up and under his shirt and slowly begin to lift it up over his head, he pauses from kissing me to allow it go over his head and onto the floor. He looks down at me and tugs n my shirt. I raise my arms and he slips the fabric of my upper body, it too gets thrown on the ground. Soon our lips meet in the middle and they are now full of lust and love that it’s hard to control the rest of our bodies. I feel his body move up and my hands go to his pants and I unbutton them and pull them down, he helps and soon his feet are taking them off the rest of his legs. I’m hungry for his lips on mine and I’m breathing erratically but I want more. He tugs at my pants and I lift up my lower body so he can undo them and slide them off my legs. Soon we are laying there in our underwear and he looks at me while panting softly “Are you sure?” he asks and I nod
“NO, are you sure?” he asks and I nod while biting my bottom lip.
He groans and rushes forward and soon before you know it, we’re naked and his inside of me and I’m feeling the pain which slowly subsides into pleasure. The whole time his asked me if I’m okay but I can’t speak so I nod. My eyes closed as we move together and when I open them instead of seeing Jamal’s face, it was Jasper’s and I freeze. He looks at me and whispers “I knew it was me you really wanted. I love you B” his lips touch mine and I melt. Wait what the?!
