Now Max, Max is a strange boy. Yes sexually active but doesn’t like to bloat about it much, a bit like Jamal. Likes to keep things to himself but every now and then he’ll let loose and we hear about some sexual encounter he’s had. Now Lily and April have both slept with him but they’ve never really bragged about it or talked about it. Like it’s some secret code not too or something. I’ve never really understood the relationship they’ve got but as long as I don’t need to hear all the details about their night in bed together I’m cool with that. Max is also very cocky and likes to be centre attention which conflicts with Lily and April all the time but they all seem to manage to get the spotlight they need and are always happy with what at hey get. I like Max his tall with black hair, he likes playing video games so when we go to his house that’s what we normally end up doing. Max is the life of the party and I know he likes to drink. April and Lily are always teasing him about something he did at some party but he just shrugs it off like he just doesn’t care. I love Maxy too, his family to me and that’s what counts. Max has been with us through it all. Basically since primary school.
They’ve all been here to help me through my mum’s death, they helped me through my grief. They continued to support me after I got back and they always come visit and help me with Emily as much as they can and if I have to do it all over again. I’d do it with these guys. I like they see me as the fragile sister they don’t have and feel like they had to protect me and I love that about them, they’ve even gotten together and tried to get me to date some guy but I was too shy and he ended up with Lily. Jamal was about the only person pissed off and although he tried to hide it everyone knew and he got teased so now he’s really careful on what he says or how he acts around or about me. I just wish that maybe things could have been different between us as I think we could have been a great loving couple. He’s always been there for me through it all and has given me some great words of wisdom, if only April wasn’t jealous of what we had it might have worked. Yeah I should hate April but I can’t and I don’t. Life is how you make it and what it brings is how you deal with it and frankly I was upset, hurt and angry but I don’t hate her for it. Jealously is a strong emotion and I can’t hate her for it. It’s just not who I am plus I’m always so busy with Emily, work and taking care of my family. I don’t think I would have been able to give Jamal what he was looking for. I think I’m too damaged for anyone to love.
I look at my friend April and I smile, what else could I do? I didn’t want her to know that since I saw and spoke to Jasper this morning I haven’t stopped thinking about him. I shake my head “I don’t even know him” I say and she smiles “Well get to know him Brook. It’s about time you climb out of that shell of yours and get a boyfriend!” she smiles sweetly but you can she she’s got that devilish smile because I almost had one – but yeah she had to go sleep with him which left us torn. I look at Jamal who looked hurt and I weakly smile at him “I’m fine with my friends. I love you so I don’t need a boyfriend!” he smiles at me so I smile back. We both know what could have been and really if I wanted to climb out of my shell as April put it I’d climb on over to Jamal? Well maybe, since Jasper's little event this morning his the only person I’ve been thinking about.
