“Hey” he says to me and my heart skips, he opens his arms up for me and I look at my dad who nods “It’s okay. We’ve sorted it all out. No more funny business” he says and I look at Jamal whose face is red but is nodding. I hug him tightly and he kisses my forehead “I’m sorry. I’ve been such a douche still. I’ve been so caught up in April and her bitching about Jasper that I’ve neglected you” he pulls me tighter to him and dad excuses himself from the room but not before he says
“No funny business!” his eyebrows raised and I laugh
“No funny business dad. Maybe a kiss but nothing else!” he looks at Ja looks says
“I promise, only a kiss and that’s it”
“Alright. I trust you guys. Goodnight”
“Night” we say in unison and we sit on the couch and cuddle up.
The smell of old spice hitting my nose as I cuddle into his shirt “Brook. I need to tell you something” he sounded serious so I pull away and look at him.
He’s eyes were soft but sad “You’re not going to like it but I have to say it before we move on in our relationship and I want you to be able to trust me okay?” I look into his eyes where tears were forming
“Okay?” I said softly and he shifts to look at me
“I think we should wait to have sex. I know I really want to and our bodies are saying otherwise but to be fair to you I can’t take something unless you’re absolutely sure okay” I breathe out.
I don’t know what I thought he was going to tell me maybe that he’d cheating on me or something which would explain why he’s never around or answering his phone but there has to be a reason and maybe while we’re putting it all out on the line I should ask? “I think that’s a great idea to bed thinking hard a Ja. Thank you. Now I don’t feel like I should be doing it to keep you happy”
“Why would you need to do that to keep me happy! I’m happy just being with you” he pokes my nose and I frown
“So why haven’t you been around much lately and you’re always with April?” he frowns
“I got a job to help my parents out and April just wants me to hang with her all the time. I’ve told her that I’m with you now and she’ll have to understand when I’m with you. She has to wait?” I look at him and smile
“Really” I ask and he nods hugging me to him
“I’m sorry. I was a douche at the start and now I’ve been a lame boyfriend. I’ll try work harder on us okay?”
“Okay” I kiss his cheek
“So let’s start over – AGAIN?” I say and we laugh
“Sure. I’d like that”
“Me too” he kisses me softly like the first day in the kitchen and I can’t help but smile into our kiss.
I just hope things remain good between us because I’d hate to lose Jamal as a friend if it doesn’t.
Jamal left and I went to bed and thought about everything. I still wasn’t sure if Jamal was being truthful but I had to give him a chance to make it up to me right? He was my long-time friend and now boyfriend so yes I should give him a chance. As I thought about things Jasper kept coming up in my mind. His smile, the way he makes me laugh, the way he hides behind his sun glasses the… – stop it Brook. He’s your friend nothing more. I finally fall asleep and decide tomorrow is going to be a new day. I wake up and do my usual routine with Emily and get ready for Jamal to come pick me up. Dad’s already left with a note on the fridge ‘Going out with Helen to dinner tonight. Be dressed and ready by 6pm please love u dad xo’ I sigh as I read the note. I am happy for him but Emily hates change, he knows this I stress over this but still he does things out of her norm and I’m the one who has to fix things up. Emily and I finish eating as there’s a knock on the door. I open it up thinking it would be Jamal but it’s not its Jasper “Oh hey?” I say and he stares at me.
