"Jasper, seriously" i giggle slightly not sure if he's being seriously with me or not and frankly after all this drama with Jamal and trust issues I'm getting with him again, if I was single I'd have no problem locking lips with him but for now It'd be cheating and after the last times I felt so guilty. He moves closer to me and whispers seductively "I am being serious B" his arm wraps around my waist and I lock eyes with him. Everything around me seems to disappear except Jasper and i swallow hard"Jasper" I whisper and i shake my head, tears forming in my eyes
"I can't..." he doesn't listen and leans in, his hot breath on my face as he comes closer.
The tips of our noses touch and the butterflies in my stomach erupt in fireworks, the tingling feeling flows through my body and I'm frozen. "B, there's something I've been meaning to tell you?" his hots breath as he talks hitting my face making me go weak at the knees
"Hmmm" was all I could manage to say or almost moan.
"Since the moment we meet. I-I've been..." he stops as my phone rings and i groan
"Don't answer it B please?" he begs softly and I look at the called ID - it says Ja
"I have too, it's Jamal?" I didn't notice until then that my breathing was hitched and I was slightly panting.
His arm tightens around me and I look at him "Jasper please" I whisper, he gets his free hand and moves the strand of hair that's fallen.
my phone keeps ringing and I lift it up and his free hand grabs it and then puts it in his pocket "His always getting in the way" he says.
I gasp "Jasper...." but I don't get to say anything as his lips come into connect with mine.
They're warm against mine and I melt into them, he slowly moves them and mine join in knowing what they want and they take control over my head, which is screaming NO! THIS IS CHEATING! but I can't stop. I just can't! His arms fully around me now holding me so close to his body, my hands has found there way up and around his neck, holding him to me. Our tongues dance as they meet in the middle and I moan as the tingling feeling ruptures through me.
I can't control it, this hunger I have to him. His touch, his smell his everything is in my grasp and I have him right where I want him and i can't let go. I run my hands through his hair and he slips out a little moan. He's enjoying this as much as I am. It's so wrong but yet its so right. The hunger gets wild and we frantically pull at each other closer. I grip his shirt in my hands as his hand grips my leg and lifts it up and he pushes up against me. I moan gawd this feels so good. So tongues going for dominance now and our hands holding tight. He slowly moves us to the car and lifts me up on the bonnet's edge. i wrap my legs around his thighs and pull him close. he rubs up on me and I can feel him and I want it. i want it so bad that it hurts. My hands find there way down to him and unbutton his jeans and then i slip my hand in and grab him, he moans loudly and I smirk. He quickly looks at me "Are you sure B?" he whispers and I nod
"I'm sure"
"What about Jam.." i put my finger to his lips
"Don't ruin this please just don't ruin it" I growl and he chuckles.
With that our lips crash together and he tugs at my shirt and i lift my arms up and it comes off. He looks at my body for a moment and smiles, he then goes down into my chest and kisses me. I giggle as he does, then he laughs as he head comes back up to face me "You've done this before. I see!?" and he grins
"A few times" he admits.
I tug at his shirt and he rips it off his body showing me his perfect abs "OMG" i whisper, he chuckles at my comment but i notice his blush.
I run my hands over his perfectly toned body then slowly i kiss random areas, then suckle on his skin leaving purple marks as i go "I see you've done this before" he repeats back at me and I giggle
"once or twice". he grins at me then lifts me up, he lifts his hand with the car keys and presses a button and it unlocks.
We go to the back seat and he lays me down, I stare up at him and he asks again "Are you sure?" i bite my bottom lip and nod. He quickly leas over the seat and puts in the keys and turns the radio on and guess what song came on "Jason Derulo - the other side" plays and i smile as its so fitting for this moment.
It plays loudly as everything slowly unfolds, in the back seat of my new car.
The rest was really a blur after, he stripped me naked and then he got naked. Jasper got out his protection and I helped him with it, he was nervous as it was our first time at this and again he asks one last time, if I was sure. I grabbed him and pulled him down on me "Yes I'm sure!" he laughed as did I.
Hours later it was over and done with and nothing could reverse the pleasure and pain we both experienced that night. It was pure mixed of emotions but the one I felt most was love. I was in love with Jasper and I'm known it for a while but was I with Jamal? It was love but in a different way. Jasper and I lay there for a while talking and slowly getting dressed. it was awkward at first but when he grabbed me and said "What I've been trying to tell you all this time B. Is that I love you. I have since that first day with Jack but Jamal stepped up and with everything's his said and done to you I knew I had a fighting chance and he doesn't deserve such a caring loving person such as yourself" tears welled up in my eyes and I pulled him close and kissed his lips and savored the moment before looking at him
"I love you too and I'm sorry. I should have realised sooner but I was blinded by the fact that I thought Jamal would change, be different but he didn't or hasn't and I'm just so sorry" our lips met in the middle and the lust and love I felt for this guy run through my body and there was no mistaking that he was the right one for me.
Jasper handed my phone back and I saw 20 missed calls and at least 10 messages all from Jamal. My heart broke thinking about him and how I'd have to tell him my heart doesn't or didn't belong to him anymore.
