Jamal looks at us and Jasper just sits there like nothing happened. How do guys do that? They always seem to act so calm and collected where us girls fall apart and can't make it work. I fiddle with my fingers as Jamal looks at us "We were studying" Jasper cuts in and we look at him and he smirks
"Studying for what?" Jamal questions.
Shit! Shit, shit, shit - Biology! Like the human body parts especially his lips haha. We can't tell him that and why is it that when we're alone things start to or almost happen. I need to try keep away from Jasper, for the time being and figure out what the hell is going on with us. I like him as a friend - yeah. Plus those beautiful eyes of his are to die for - OMG Brook stop already! while day dreaming about Jasper's eyes, Jamal waves his hand in front of my trying to get my attention "Ha what? Sorry?" he looks at me
"Babe, are you okay?" I stare up at him and smile
"I'm fine just a little dazed from this sunlight. That's all. Come sit with us!" he wraps his arms around me and we sit together.
Jamal snuggles up to me and keeps kissing my neck. It tickles and I squirm in his touch "Ja stop" i cry and he laughs
"So Jasper. Angel tells me you've been hanging out?"
"Well we..." Jamal basically totally ignores Jasper and his respond while he nibbles on my ear lobe.
I flick my head towards his and they bump "stop?" I say he pouts and i point to Jasper
"You asked a question so listen to the answer" Jamal looks over at him and smirks
"Sorry man, you know it is when you just can't help yourself but touch!" Jasper just looks at him while Jamal continues to smirk to him
"sorry man go on?"
"Yeah Angel and I have been hanging out alot. She's really a nice chick and we get along well" Jamal plays with a piece of my hair and hums "Yeah, she told my mum the other day that you've been hanging out with her"
"Yeah, it's only when we can. Nothing serious" he looks at me when he says the word serious and I look away - like I should care.
Which I do but I shouldn't.
We talk for a while before Jamal gets bored and starts to fondle me totally ignoring the fact that jasper was right there or making sure he knew that I was off bounds to him but I watch as jasper gets up and says "I'll catch you love birds later" he chuckles "Bye" I call out just before Jamal grabs me and kisses me passionately.
When we finally pull apart. i giggle then tell Jamal "How rude are you?" I ask and he shrugs
"The guy likes you. I just wanted to show him that you're all mine and not his. he'll get over it" he leans back in but I push his face with my hand away, he pouts
"What?"
"Don't be rude like that again okay. Jasper is still my friend" he sighs
"Fine. I'll apologise to him later" I look at him and he smiles
"I will. I promise!" we snuggle up and talk some more before the bell.
i found out that he got a free period due to the teacher falling ill and they were meant to be in the library and since he knew I had a free period he thought he'd come find me and spend some time together. We walk back to school and finish homeroom before heading to the carpark. I see jasper there with Angel. Does she go to this school? I haven't seen her around here before? Maybe she came to visit hi? I watch as she touches him and they laugh and talk but I can't help but notice the ping of jealously building up within me. Dam it Brook! I look away, just look the other way. So I turn my head and what I see if April talking to Jamal. her hand on his chest and she's giving him that giggle that you do when you want something. I watch for a moment as they are oblivious to everyone and everything around them. I pull my bag up over my shoulder and decide I'm going to bus it today. Fuck him no fuck them both!
I get on the bus and watch April and Jamal as they continue to talk even when the bus drives off. Only then does Jamal look around, he sees me and his face drops as the bus pulls away. i shake my head at him and look the other way. My phone starts ringing but I ignore it. How could he? After all the shit we've been through because of her? Then he acts like I don't even exist and doe sit right out the front of our school. People were staring and whispering and it felt horrible. Was Jamal just using me? For what I don't know but not at this moment he's not. I look at my phone as it lights up with messages from him
'Baby please it was nothing. We were just talking'
'Babe, don't do this please'
'I'm going to your place. You can't hide from me there!'
I was fuming because he was right. I had to go home to pick up Emily. Dam. Wait up. i unlock my phone and call my dad and ask if him or Helen would be home to get Emily. he asked why and I lied. I hate lying to my dad but I didn't want him to know where I was really going because truthfully I didn't know myself. i just didn't want to see Jamal right now. It's been weeks and things have been going so good why would he mess things up yet again for April. what the hell does she have over him? The phone rings and dad answers "Brook?Is everything okay?"
"Dad, i have some homework to do that requires me to go somewhere for the information. Can you or Helen be there for Emily?" I wait as he takes a moment
"Sure, Helen can do. She;s got the afternoon off...is everything alright?" I wait and take a deep breath before answering as I'm on the verge of crying
"I-I'm fine dad, really. Ill be home before 9pm okay?"
"Sure honey and if you need anything or just want to talk Helen or I are here for you okay?" I smile
"Okay dad, thanks. Bye" I hang up and quickly get off at the next stop. it's not mine but I don't care. I'll walk from here to god knows where.
