I go to walk off but he grabs me and kisses me forcefully. I struggle to get out of his grip and I don't kiss back but I bite my lower lip and then he licks my lip, sending me a shock wave of emotions so instead of resisting I kiss him back. He smirks under the kiss and he knows his won - the arsehole! I pout at him as we break apart "Why?' i begged and he laughed
"Because you love me?" he pulled me close and I respond with
"Maybe?" he laughs and pecks my lips
"Brook love me! Brook loves me!" he keeps repeating and I can't help but smile at him, he's such a kid but I do love him and I just can't say it to him.
It doesn't feel right, well not yet "Eww do you guys ever stop?!" Emily cries from behind us with Jasper whose face it back to normal again.
I roll my eyes at her and look at Jasper, he looks a little hurt but for what? I don't know? "I better go. Thanks Emily for the makeover" Emily giggled
"Anytime Jasper" Jamal looked at him
“Man if I was a rapist I think you would have been first with all that sexy makeup on" Jasper shifts a little on his feet and looks at me and totally ignores Jamal's comment
"I'll see you later B"
"Thanks for everything Jasper" i smile at him.
Jamal looks at him then me and pulls me closer to him "See you tomorrow bro?" he says to Jasper waiting for a response
"Sure, bye" with that Jasper grabbed his bag and was out of there.
Jamal didn't look too happy and I knew where this would end up and I really didn't want to argue with him again over Jasper and I but he was a jealous boyfriend. I get that but the needs to learn to trust me. Jasper is a great friend and yeah I kissed him at the start but it was a mistake and I've been so careful not to go further than being friends so Jamal needs to chill!
Emily goes and has a shower while Jamal helps me with dinner "So what's going on between you and Jasper?" i sigh and roll my eyes before looking at him
"NOTHING!" I said sternly
"Well that's not it looked like today?" he looks at me and I shake my head
"We were playing with Em, nothing more nothing less"
"Yeah well i don't think you two should be alone together. I see the way he stares at you and it's in a way only I should be looking at you!" he declares
"Ja seriously?" i ask
"Jasper and I are friends and I can't understand why you'd think anything more of it? You know it was hard not to think you were cheating on me with April when we first started dating. You were always with her when you weren't with me and stood me up on our first date to party it up with her!" it came out bitchy and I knew it would cause a fight but it was true.
I hadn't stopped thinking about Jen's words and Jamal's actions. I know he's not like that now but still. They have history, whereas Jasper and I don't so what gives? I walk away from him and go to my living room, quickly looking up the stairs to make sure Emily wasn't there but I could still hear her singing so she'd still be a while. Jamal came straight after me by grabbing my arm and swinging me around to look at him "What?" I said angrily
"Tell me why he spends so much time with you. Here at school, you two are always together?"
"Nothing is going on Ja. I promise, we are friends and friends only. Why are you getting all up in my face right now?" His eyes were dark and i could tell it was pure jealously that he was feeling and yeah i get it.
I'd be worried too if my girlfriend was hanging around with another guy who freely flirted with you like it was nothing but it was harmless and I thought he knew that? Well I guess I was wrong! "I don't like you spending so much time with him. He's too comfortable!"
"What?" i asked confused.
What the hell was too comfortable meant to mean?
Jamal lets my arm go and walks to the other side of the room. He runs his hands through his hair and then grabs it and pulls tightly at it, pulling the angriest face I'd ever seen on him before, and then he spun around and looked at me and my heart dropped. He looked like the devil himself and i was scared. In all the years I'd know Ja he'd never acted like this before and now I was stuck and scared. What was I going to do, if he lost it he could hurt me or Emily and I'd never live with myself it that happened "Brook" he says sternly towards me
"You need to make a discussion now!" I look at him and I know what he's about to say and it's not even fair what it is.
I never made him do it with April. I just let it go and trusted that whatever they were up to it wasn't something that would hurt me later on "You need to decide!"
"Decide what?" i asked but it was a stupid question because I already knew what it was
"It's either me or him?"
"Why" i complained and he stood up straight and clenched his teeth at me, you could see his jaw line more than ever.
"Because, I fucking said so. Either you're MY girlfriend or HIS friend?" he emphasized on the and His and I cringed at each word.
I looked at him and realised this wasn't the same Jamal I'd loved all these years, this was some boy who'd April had gotten her fingers into and changed into a selfish pig and i was done with it. No one makes me decide on who I can and who I can't speak too. So i took a deep breath and checked the stairs first to make sure Em was still busy. Yep the shower was still on and she was singing happily to herself. i stepped forward and looked at Jamal "I'm sorry Ja but you can't ask me to do that" his eyes grew wide and he stepped forward towards me so I retreated back a few
"And why is that, do you have something going on with him or better do you like him?" honestly right now I did.
He'd never make me choose even if we'd been friends a short while. I knew Jasper would let me be friends with whoever I wanted no questions asked. He did things he wanted too and I'd be allowed to do my own. That's what a good friendship is based on right and being in a relationship should mean there is more trust and right now I'm feeling the trust at all.
I bite my bottom lip until it bleed but I knew I'd started this fight and I had to end it soon before Em came down and before my dad got home to find his golden boy all up in my face because he was jealous of a boy who makes me and my sister happy. So I took another deep breathe and I said "Ja.."
"It's Jamal not Ja!" this made me so angry so i stepped forward to show him I wasn't scared anymore and I wasn't.
i was truly getting angry myself with this boy who said he had feelings for me but was now making me choose who I could and couldn't be friends with "That's not fair and you know it Jamal" he clenched his fists
"Why is that Brooklyn?!" oh no he didn't, he didn't say my full name and think I'd be cool with it?
"Jamal, I don't think it's fair of you to ask me not to be friends with a guy because you have this notion that we're secretly together behind your back. Because we're not and I don't like you acting like you can't trust me. I trusted you with April those first few weeks when all you did were things for her?" there I said it! It'd been eating me up inside and now I was letting it all out.
He glared at me "How do you know I was with her?"
"Because everybody told me and so did you that night you came here drunk! Or what don't you remember. You were so distant from me. You wouldn't text or call. come around or say much and I started to wonder if we were actually going out or not then you promised me this romantic first date that you bailed on and Jasper only happened to come over because April was meant to pick him up but low and behold. You'd taken them there and stayed to get drunk only to come here expecting sex from me. I'm not April or Lily Jamal. I'm Brooklyn the virgin!" I shouted in his face.
I stood there and watched his face transform into gawd only knows what and then he looked down like I'd caught him out and now it was his time to confess and honestly I hope he did because I'm not sure I want a boyfriend who thinks they can own me.
