Panem High (Sequel to 'Two hearts beats as one')

Chapter 37: At the hospital

Chapter 37

Katniss P.O.V.

We're at the hospital. We're in the waiting room. We can't get anything g out of Skeeter. She don't cry anymore, her face just looks dead. She looks just as she did the day after she broke up with Gale because if her horrible mother. She have no life in either her face or eyes. Her eyes are red after all the crying.

She just sits and hugs the little white kitty Savannah. She always have that cat. You can't have cats at the hospital but we his her when we got here and we look out for doctors and nurses and stuff.

The group all sits on different places. We're completely shattered. There's not so much hope for this group to stay friends anymore. To be honest I think this is the end for the group as we know it.

The thought of the group splitting up makes me want to cry. We have all been through so much together. I mean yeah we have fought and stuff, and we have lectured each other, like when I told Cato off in school for being a man slut and to care for the girl he really loved, Glimmer. Damit I got the two of them together, I didn't lock Cato in a basement unconscious or without food or water. I still can't believe they did that. I mean yeah I was also angry with Gale, but no way I would ever do this to him. So much he didn't deserve, because to be completely honest, he wasn't the one that broke the relationship, Skeeter did because of her awful wannabe Peeta's mom, I mean seriously.

As we sit here I look around. I sit here with Peeta, Skeeter, Annie and Finnick. Cato sits with Glimmer and Clove sits with Marvel. Johanna sits by herself because she's angry. This is how it's gonna be. Maybe we can fix this somehow. But if Gale dies, this is not going to be fixed, this can only be fixed if Gale don't hold a grudge against Cato and Marvel. Because until Gale have forgiven them, everyone will be mad at them. If Gale wakes up and is going to be able to forgive them that is.

I'm really disappointed in my cousin. I never thought he could do such a thing. He have always been this happy, goofy but overprotective cousin. But he never hurt anyone. I can't believe how he could do this. I just can't.

He tried talking to me, but I just can't look him in the eyes right now. I mean we'll always be related, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to look at him the same way again.

Peeta is still so angry, and at the same time he's really worried about Gale. I try to calm him down big I can't. Peeta and Finnick were the only once who really gave Gale a chance to explain and have him a chance to still be a part of the group. I know that I was hard in Gale. I do, and I regret that so much. He didn't deserve it, he really didn't. He was just a heartbroken guy who didn't know what to do. And when you're in that kind of situation, you can do stuff that you'll regret later on. And I know that Gale regret what he did. I just hope that I get the chance to apologize to him, to him alive and not to his casket.

I glance at Marvel. I want to scream and cry at the same time. He do look like he regret what he did, but it can't be undone. I can't keep quiet anymore. I just can't.

I stand up and walk up to Marvel.

He sees me when I stand right in front of him and he opens his mouth to say something, but I interrupt.

"Don't bother I just came here to tell you something. When I sat on the train, I was looking out a window as we got closer and closer to Panem, and I was happy, so happy about the thought of seeing you and Glimmer again, because you're my cousins and I love you, but when we got home and I found out what you did, I can't even describe the disappointment I feel towards you right now, I'm even too disappointed to mad, there's no room for being mad, and for the first time, I'm actually really ashamed of the fact that you're my cousin", I say to Marvel as I feel tears flow down my eyes. "I don't even know how to look at you right now, what if he dies? What will happen then? Do you think everyone will believe the story you two made up, huh? Do you? Well I don't think so, the only one who can really save your asses right now, is Gale himself, but he can't at the moment as you put him here barely alive, and even if he makes it, what makes you so sure he will come to your rescue huh? I've never been this disappointed in anyone before, so congratulations, cousin".

I wipe away my tears withy thumb and sniff. I stop crying.

Marvel doesn't say anything and I walk back to my seat beside Peeta and he puts his arms around me in a hug and pulls me close to him.

And it's true what I said to Marvel, I've never been disappointed in anyone this much before, not even my mother for lying to me, I was just mad at her and I'm still mad, I'm super mad still and I don't want anything g to do with her. But another thing is also true about what I told Marvel. I do love him. I didn't say that in past tense, because it's not, I do love him and he'll always be my cousin, and hopefully I'll be able to not feel disappointed in him, but if Gale dies, I know that my disappointment won't ever disappear.

Johanna catch my eye. She smiles and nods approvingly at me. I smile and nod back.

I don't want to believe that this is it for the group. I don't. I want to believe in a future for the group. I want to believe that we can fix what's broken. But I don't think we can. What's done is done, and maybe this can't be fixed. Everything is up to what happens with Gale. If he dies, nothing can be fixed, if he lives, it's up to him to forget and forgive, and that is what's going to bring the group back together, if Gale is willing to forget and forgive that is.

Skeeter won't talk at all. She just sits here hugging Savannah. I can't blame her. She love Gale so much. And it have to sit here, waiting for someone to hell hell if the love of her life is dead or alive have to be so hard. I don't know what I would do if it was Peeta's life hanging in a thin thread. I would probably look just like Skeeter.

I take her hand.

"Skeeter, I don't know what's going to happen, but I do know how much you love him, so I also know that you blame yourself, so don't okay?" I say looking at her. "It's not your fault we're here, it's not your fault how everything turned out".

"But it is, it so is, I'm the one who messed it all up, it is my fault", she says, her voice as dead as her face.

"No your mom was drowning your kitty right before your eyes and made you do what you did Skeeter!" I say. "So don't even go there, I'm serious".

"Wait what?" Peeta asks.

I look around. Everyone is looking at us.

"Oops", I say.

Skeeter sighs.

"What was that?" Johanna asks.

Skeeter sighs again and take a deep breath.

"Well... My mother isn't the kindest woman you can find, she's awful a she didn't like me dating Gale so she took Savannah from me and tried to drown her in front of my eyes until I did what she told me", Skeeter says. "And what she told me to do was to pick up my phone and dump Gale, I didn't know what to do, I panicked, I mean she was seconds away of killing my kitty in front of me, is in all of the panic I called Gale and broke up, not because I wanted to but because I didn't have a choice".

Everyone looks at her.

"And FYI I did know everything about Gale and he's affairs, I just didn't think I had the right to be angry, because I didn't, it was my fault that he broke down in the first place", she says. "And now he may never know how much I love him".

"God we screwed up!" Cato says and starts to panic.

"You don't say", Peeta mutter angrily.

Everyone becomes quiet. No one says anything anymore.

We sit here for a few hours before a doctor comes up to us.

Everyone stands up.

"How is he?" Peeta asks.

"Well..." The doctor starts and I prepare myself for the worst.

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Hey guys, I hope you liked the chapter.

As I said before I'm not going to have a schedule anymore, it kind if forced me to write on each day and I don't come up with good ideas that way, soooo no more schedule.

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-Josephine