Panem High (Sequel to 'Two hearts beats as one')

Chapter 40: If I ain't got you

Chapter 40

Katniss P.O.V.

Peeta and the boys don't look at us girls, they don't talk to us and they don't come near us.

We all have the same lessons together so it's hard to be near Peeta without starting to cry.

I still don't understand what happened. This was all my fault. I made Peeta believe that I don't love him anymore, yet he's the most important thing in my life.

I can't function without my Peeta. But right now I don't know if he's my Peeta, anymore. I'm so confused, did he break up with me? He said that we maybe shouldn't be together for now. I think that sounds like a break up, don't it?

Glimmer tells me that it sounds more like a break. But I don't believe in breaks. Either you're together or your not, there is not middle thing.

Annie explained everything to the girls and they all thought I did the wrong thing by not trusting him because he would never be unfaithful and that I should know that by now. And they're right. But I do trust him, I don't really know what happened in my head this morning.

But the girls are on my side even though they're annoyed with me, because they're annoyed with Peeta as well. They think that he just should've told me who he was talking to in the phone. And that he shouldn't have broken up with me only because of one silly fight.

When I come to think about it, the fight really was silly, and it should't have effected our relatinship. But it did. I don't know why, but it did.

I hate myself for hurting Peeta. Why did I had that silly dumb fight?

We don't sit with the guys at lunch. We came first into the cafeteria, the the guys came and took a seat at whole other table.

"What's wrong with them?" Skeeter asks.

"Don't you see? Peeta says, they follow", Clove says. "Peeta is the king bee, and Katniss is the queen bee, that's why they fit together, and why they are perfect for each other".

I really don't want to hear this right now. Peeta apparently don't think we fit together, otherwise why would he do this?

I glance at the boys table. They sit and laugh. Our table is quiet. We all miss our boyfriends.

People around us, knows that something is going on in the group, because we don't sit together. Everyone is looking at us, whispering. I don't like their whispering.

"Oh god what have I done?" I ask.

"It wasn't you fault Kat", Skeeter says.

She says and does anything to make me happy again. But I just can't be happy without my Peeta, I just can't. I have nothing if I don't have Peeta ... and I don't have him anymore.

I look down at my plate, and my tears fall down in my food.

"Oh no sweetheart come here", Glimmer says and puts her arms around me.

She pulls me close to her and rock me soothing.

I love my cousin. I wish Marvel was here to hold me as well. He's also my cousin and hes a month older then me so hes my big cousin, even it s just one month. But he's not here to hold me. He's over with the other guys, laughing.

I glance at the boys table.

I think I see Peeta glance at me with a bit of sadness in his eyes. But I don't know if it really happened. I don't think so. It's my teary eyes tricking me. That's the only thing that really happened.